something new

2010-07-07T02:22:00.002+08:00

strangely i wanted to write here for a very long time.
and just as strangely, whenever i start my mind goes blank.

oh well..
i have too many things to say that words can do justice to.

i think its weird that death comes in 3s.
its sad. but strangely comforting. you don't go alone.
but i guess its a reminder to me..
that death is looming,
ever so near.
and its element of surprise,
makes death a face of engima.

how well we know that we should be preparing for it.
yet we think that today its not the day and that tomorrow is just a day too soon.

but if its truely tomorrow?

does death give us the benefit of lasting a few minutes longer?
but surely we know that no amount of time will stop us from desiring to live longer.
how foolish can we be.. to think that we can decieve death.. though in tru fact its deciving us

2010-04-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

im looking at all thats happening around me..

what do you think is the most pleasant attribute one could have?

Im thinking humbleness.

someone without arrogance..

I'm now 21.

And i can assure you that with age, the seed of pride has grown with its roots holding onto the depths of the heart.

ITs roots run so deep that to uproot it itll take a good throttling..

the sense that one is better (much better mind you) than the other.

yet the former comprehend not that the beautiful one in the eyes of one much wiser, much greater is indeed the latter.

It shames me to admit that at times i too have had its seeds planted, have felt the leaves sprouting..and the flower of pride blooms and blossoms with the showers of praises..

yes i am ashamed..

very ashamed..

you might ponder why.

Pride is something one can have.

after all one must have attained an accomplishment to have pleasure and thus entitle themselves to the feeling of pride.

surely pride cannot stand by itself if one has achieved nothing.

yet one can perceive that he or she has succeeded but not realised that in true fact the success is not but a shadow.

a shadow of the victory.

chasing after the shadow will get you neither close to it nor will it give you any satisfaction of achievement.. after all all you have done is exausted yourself..

perhaps im not making any sense at all.

all im saying is that the pride is a deadly sword..

and in it one can neither find peace or happiness..

it was what got iblis thrown out of heaven..

it was what lead many astray..

we don't realise that being proud means to be ungrateful..

simply because we think that we are more worthy

and we think that the cause of our success is us..us alone.

yet we forget that the sole one is god.

without HIM we can't even exist.

let alone succeed.

yet we have this arrogance.

that we are better.

only because we have more.

let it be grades, wealth, beauty

but does more equate to being better?

or is a perception we have sought to see despite the reality.

do you know the most generous amongst us are the poorest?

if you don't believe me. go to someone with almost nothing and tell him that you have nothing.

he will be willing to give you more than what the richest man will be living to give.

you can mark my words.

im very sure.

for ive seen it myself.

i know of poor people who will love you like their own flesh & blood

and i know of rich who are your own flesh who are barren of love.

surprising isn't it.

and we are supposed to be the superior of creatures..

when creatures show love and care to one another despite their "status"..

or maybe its us who deemed ourselves as superior..

out of PRIDE..

..of course.

2010-02-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

Okey officially LG sucks..
man..
this year has gotten off to a really bad start..
i have this funny feeling that at the end of this year..
ill claim that its bitter sweet..

firstly its gonna be a painful year
or has been one thus far
ouch..
spacers hurt!
its like your teeth having a boxing match in your mouth..
ouch..
chillies burn!
esp the small chilli padi's small seeds..
ouch..
ouch..
ouch..

secondly its gonna be a hilarious year..
haha i can't tell you the funny, yet embarrassing things ive done thus far..

2010-01-04T23:16:00.004+08:00

ever felt a great sense of awe?
ashamed at your own flaws that seems endless?

the past weeks have served as a reminder of where i stand and
the effort that i have put..
or more like not put in..
i have been humbled by some people's patience..
something that i know that i will never be able to compete..
let alone preceed..

i have been granted the gift of time..which i have let waste away..
i know that time is ticking..
yet knowing alone serves no purpose..
its a reminder..
but nothing more..
just a simple reminder..which i frequently chuck away into the unknown depths of my mind..

i know that this is what i love..
i know tha physio is something i chose..
it chose me..
it wasn't something thrown at my face..
it was something that i had gone after..

yet after knowing all these..

i don't seem to throw myself into learning about everything..
i think that this dunya is somthing that will not last..
but then i haven't been working any hard for akhirah
i know i am fooling myself.
i am cheating..yet i know that the cheated one is me
and the loser is me..
how much more foolish can i get..

sometimes i wonder..
may be just maybe.. if i had done archi would i be better?
i know that i wouldn't be happier..
just more satisfied grade wise
sigh..

i hope ill end my seemingly useless attitude soon
i hope i learn patience and knowledge from you..
i hope to be a stronger person..
one who stands tall with knowledge..
both dunya and akhirah..
not one crouching in utter ignorance..

i will become a better person
after all everything lies in my hands..
to many changes too soon
so many change of plans..
i don't seem to see things your way..
i just see things so differently..
but the world is not a place for different..simple minded people..

i don't lie..
and i hope not to..
but sometimes the truth seems more unbelieveable than a lie..
believe it or not..
gee i dont'care much, but i do care enough to think about your thoughts..

yea..

i m the foolish one..
maybe i should be more selfish?
maybe i should be more scheming..
but strangely i was never taught them..
maybe..
its time to learn...

2009-10-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

today was an insightful day..
a day for rememberance..
so remember today..
its the day when i felt the warm feeling of love..
friendship found a new definition in my dictionary..
and again words fail to express my feelings..
so thank you atiqah and fannie..
for helping..
the last lap was possible because of you guys..

do you know sometimes i feel that im not as good as a friend as they are to me..
ill miss you guys

you know i never saw life without smell or taste..
i can never imagine how it will be like to not smell or taste..
man..its like cutting off your nose and tongue..
you can't salivate at the aroma of freshly baked cookies..
can't cringe at the stinky toilet..
can't cough and cry because of the incredibly spicy tom yam soup..
i can't imagine..and if i have to..
i hope the imagination doesn't turn to a brutal reality..

i am so grateful..
allhamdurillah..its really in losses do we learn the beauty of our perfect creation..
and one can't help wondering..if the creation was this good how will the creator be..
subhanallah

2009-09-25T13:20:00.002+08:00

a quickie..
i think the privileged don't know that they are..
till they fall and see it from a far..
then they wonder why they hadn't treasured it before..
well some times its too much to think afore..

old habits die hard..
new habits try too hard to stay..

oh well..
see the world through a kaleidoscope and perhaps you'll get the drift..
till next time..

life

2009-08-29T00:39:00.005+08:00

no titles..
its past midnight..
but i couldn't sleep..

in this month of forgiveness how can one forgive an unforgivable act?
something so crude..
something so ridiculous..
im digusted by the unjust..

when will the promised day come?
where every unjust will be justly judged?
when will the day of questioning arrive?
where everyone's lies and misdoings questioned?
this dunya (world) offers no peace..
when will we see aahirah?

ya allah

i wish it was much easier..but its hard..if you are torn between respect and rational reasoning..
which wins?
i wish that i knew a way out without ripping any strings..
already on the verge of tearing..how can i possibly not break the fragile bond?
an impossible task at hand..
yet there is much at risk..for me that is..

dont you see how much it pains me to watch your life waste away?
and now you want me to be part of this vicious cycle..
i don't want to disappoint you..
yet i can't throw my life away and trap myself in a trap that i can never get out of..
i hate this..

i really do..
i smile coz frowning doesn't help..
it gives me neither joy nor satisfaction..
yet the smile doesn't reach the eye..
a smile with no soul..
perhaps thats wad ive become..

cause i dint believe that youll do this..
i thought that youll stand up for once..
yet i don't know why i don't blame you..
i convince myself tat it was the situation..
not your character default..
everytime you bring me into the cycle..
i laugh..
coz i can't cry..
my heart is a rock..
like u say ever so often..

but do you realise that it has to be such?
for we have to protect ourselves from the stones aimed at you?
you are so vulnerable..
and we don't want to end up that way..

i hate these strings that tie me down..
yet each string has an emotional value that i just can't bring myself to throw away..
y does this have to happen time and time again?

wat wrong have we done to deserve such?
you don't deserve it!
they do!
yet y are we suffering?us both?
y not them?

every time we see you suffer it reallie is painful..
and we are pulled into it along with you..
don't you see that they are the enemy not us?
must you lose us to realise that?

i don't know wat to do..
i know that the price is money..
but i really don't want us to win this battle..
we have fought so long coz the battle was for us to win!
but don't u see the injust?
they are fighting with you on their side..
don't you see that without you they are nothing?
though they make you believe that it is you who is nothing!

and here we are fighting for you..
against you..

ya allah..
may allah help you..
for you are confused beyond means..

i don't want to fight this battle any more..
let them win
i mean they are going to anyways..
y prolong the already known?
lets lose with dignity..
let them win this battle!

for they have a greater battle to fight in the hereafter..
and there ALLAH is the judge..
he is fair..
he will let us win..
for all along we have suffered for nothing..
there it will bring peace to our suffering..
there it will be justice to the ultimatum..
nothing unfair..

AL HAQQAH - INCOTESTABLE THE REALITY

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

The Sure Reality!

What is the Sure Reality?

And what will make thee realise what the Sure Reality is?

The Thamud and the 'Ad People (branded) as false the Stunning Calamity!

But the Thamud,- they were destroyed by a terrible Storm of thunder and lightning!

And the 'Ad, they were destroyed by a furious Wind, exceedingly violent;

He made it rage against them seven nights and eight days in succession: so that thou couldst see
the (whole) people lying prostrate in its (path), as they had been roots of hollow palm-trees tumbled down!

Then seest thou any of them left surviving?

And Pharaoh, and those before him, and the Cities Overthrown, committed habitual Sin.

And disobeyed (each) the apostle of their Lord; so He punished them with an abundant Penalty.

We, when the water (of Noah's Flood) overflowed beyond its limits, carried you (mankind), in the floating (Ark),

Then, when one blast is sounded on the Trumpet,

And the earth is moved, and its mountains, and they are crushed to powder at one stroke,-

On that Day shall the (Great) Event come to pass.

And the sky will be rent asunder, for it will that Day be flimsy,

And the angels will be on its sides, and eight will, that Day, bear the Throne of thy Lord above
them.

That Day shall ye be brought to Judgment: not an act of yours that ye hide will be hidden.

Then he that will be given his Record in his right hand will say: "Ah here! Read ye my Record!

"I did really understand that my Account would (One Day) reach me!"

And he will be in a life of Bliss,

In a Garden on high,

The Fruits whereof (will hang in bunches) low and near.

"Eat ye and drink ye, with full satisfaction; because of the (good) that ye sent before you, in the
days that are gone!"

And he that will be given his Record in his left hand, will say: "Ah! Would that my Record had not been given to me!

"And that I had never realised how my account (stood)!

"Ah! Would that (Death) had made an end of me!

"My power has perished from me!"...

(The stern command will say): "Seize ye him, and bind ye him,

"And burn ye him in the Blazing Fire.

"Further, make him march in a chain, whereof the length is seventy cubits!

"This was he that would not believe in Allah Most High.

"And would not encourage the feeding of the indigent!

"So no friend hath he here this Day.

"Nor hath he any food except the corruption from the washing of wounds,

"Which none do eat but those in sin."

So I do call to witness what ye see,

And what ye see not,

That this is verily the word of an honoured apostle;

It is not the word of a poet: little it is ye believe!

Nor is it the word of a soothsayer: little admonition it is ye receive.

(This is) a Message sent down from the Lord of the Worlds.

And if the apostle were to invent any sayings in Our name,

We should certainly seize him by his right hand,

And We should certainly then cut off the artery of his heart:

Nor could any of you withhold him (from Our wrath).

But verily this is a Message for the Allah.fearing.

And We certainly know that there are amongst you those that reject (it).

But truly (Revelation) is a cause of sorrow for the Unbelievers.

But verily it is Truth of assured certainty.

So glorify the name of thy Lord Most High.

Quran: Al Haqqah

my fave surah.. ive warned you on my part now its ur choice to believe or not.

2009-06-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

if you think i haven't blogged in a long time..it aint really true..its just that i never got around to publish any of them till today..

aniways..
im really hoping to finish driving b4 the end of this year but by the looks of things it doesn't seem all that possible..
sigh..

oh well im super broke.. (including the umpteenth time im cancelling BTT and booking another day which pushes my hopes of getting a car behind by a whole month..)

ahh..
im fustrated..
oh well perhaps its fated..
have u read the book the alchemist?
there is this phrase that the author mentions:

Opportunity knocks only once on a door..
But if it knocks a second time..it will knock a third..

and for some resons i really believe this..
i believe that everything comes in 3s..
oh well...

2009-05-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

exhausted..thats wad i m now.. okey ill tell u everything in one word.. join them up.. figure it out..

aussie: interesting entertaining made me luv s'pore mre made me think different ppl freedom of speech hurts shallow mindedness silly ppl nice bus driver peaceful beautiful stars.. no roaches horses nice to ride on.. love it yet won't stay there..

attachment:(KKH) cute babies office politics different ppl reflective today: krish:- nuclear plant interesting conv strange qn Home:- family love peace yesterday:- Naz:- NYPms BUMP!!! squashed laughter joy smiles School:- rush lazy..nice strange tomorrow: beautiful and greatful that it ain't in my hands...

2009-04-12T18:49:00.002+08:00

ahh the age which swings like a pendulum, from teen hood to adulthood..
yet neither it is..
neither it will be..
i'm no longer a teenager..

you know this thought alone scares me..
soon ill be an adult.. in 11 months time..
this scares me even more..

i know what i don't want to be..who i don't want to become..
yet i know that though i don't want to change..
time and tide changes a person..
every person..
and so though however adamant i have been../am.. i have changed..
or so i think..

i've realised that we (singaporeans) work like crazy people and we have no life..
the reality of it just struck..while shodowing the PTs..
i realised that if the flame of passion for physio..
i can't work like a maniac..
i have to work part time or something..
or ill be admitted in the mental ward and not treating there..
and i m dead serious..

how did my birthday go?
it was a beautiful day to begin with..
as the day progressed..the beauty faded..

period.

2009-01-31T13:10:00.002+08:00

ahh...as surprising as this sounds the year of the ox seems to bring joy and strange excitement.
who knew the odd year would be interesting.
this year seems to preceed all judgements i have had for the uneven years..
an odd twist in the odd year.

nice.

uncharted territories explored..
climbing up a tree..
unsuccessful attempts of flying kites..
riding a cycle with hands in the air..
eating yogurt off a tiny cup..
being bombarded by the manager..
talking to strangers..
deaf society has got a new vounteer..
a sun burnt nose and cheek..
new skin under the burnt nose & cheek..
new glasses..
new aims..
new beginings..
...and its barely even started..

the old me is back..
with a bang..
..
.
oh gossip girl was watched till the end..
sadly the fomer season was better than the latter..
but chace din't fail me one bit..
haha
nice..
random and perhaps hard to understand..
told u the old me is back...
with a bang..

till next time..
toodles

2009-01-24T14:13:00.002+08:00

ever wondered if the grass will truly be greener on the other side?
"ekkari maathirkku akkarrai pachchai"

but we will truly never know will we?
unless we land on the other side and then realise that the colour of the grass doesn't matter...
its perception.
its the soil.
the rain.
the beautiful sun.

and all the while on this side of green.
its the same sun, rain and soil.

ahh...
funny we people are..
appreciate the things better when we lose them..
yet appreciting something lost does no justice at all.
to u.
to me.
to the lost.

in the quran there is a saying; there is always someone better than u and someone worse off then u..

2009-01-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

A NEW YEAR
which reminds me that i am turning the big 20 this year
oh..well...
end of the teenage years!!
Man but i suppose feelings dont count
years do
haha
well before the BIG dAY
i wish to achieve a few things...
haha a few..before i reach the age that swings between the unpredictable adolacent years and the exceptionally rigid adult years..
well may be the thing that tops the list is watching season 2 of gossip girl....
haha yea its totally distracting you noe!!
aniwaes thanks to the listening ears...
naz, lyd, renu, miru and sam..thank u guys big time!!
this year has started so funnily..totally don't know wad to expect..
but last year died down with no exceptional "hooha"

but the memories of 2008 will never die...
i can't sum it all up in a couple of lines... but ill try to...
haha maybe later gotta go but guys u have to watch gossip girl!!
toodles

2008-11-30T00:03:00.003+08:00

this week has been a fairly interesting week.

alhamdurrillah

thou i truly haven't found the time to study..haha but alls well

firstly a big thank you to elsa..

i really salute her..

so grateful to have a PT like her and so glad to be helping her as

a patient..

though i fairly think that i m a terrible one at that..

but she is wonderful..

really

she is..

so thank u elsa for being so sweet and helpful..

for being so nice and going to PT1 and helpin' me

i am more than grateful

next vicky..

for being so co-operative...

thou i am such a hard PT..she is so patient..

really..

i noe that i can be such a pain at times..so tank u so much

for ur understanding..and just being a pillar of support with all those encouraging words..

thanks

yea

aniwaes abt the week

monday went fairly well with me slping like a pig at home

then tues was okey though very draggy

wed and thurs the usual

but fridaY was the interesting day

haha i won't tell u wad happened but the person was a very brave person..

so hats off to the person..

next we went out with nazrin machi and anik

i am soo lucky to have such a cute nephew

yea

haha

also..i have been MIA for almost all the GRC meetings..( i have no idea y they haven't kicked me out yet!!)

and for NYPMS, naz said that she tot i was so buzy that she din give me anything to do!

wahh

haha

i have lovely friends

close buddys

REally m so greatful

thank u allah

really m so tankful

and a great family..

i realised that those whom u reach for in times of need are those whom u craddle in ur arms..

holding them so tightly..

hoping that all darkness will be ended with the glow of trust and love

yea..

tank u all again for makin this week so memorable..

so sweet and cherishable

yea..

2008-11-14T23:07:00.003+08:00

everyday i learn something new..
it amazing how the human mind has been crafted so perfectly that there is no flaw..
and in the something thats amiss,
we realise the true beauty of our kind..

how beautifully we are created..
imagine if none of us were different..none with a defect..
then we won't appreciate how perfectly tuned we are..

every cell in its place..
every atom in its orbit..

would we know the function of the eye if all of us could see?
would we appreciate the mind's endless boundaries..
where imagination is allowed to travel and realities attained..
the exquisite features marvel me..
and beyond doubt..
i noe that such perfection can be created by one greater..

one so great that perfection is HIS name..

perfection is HIM..

does it make sense that such a perfection exsist without a creator?
someone must exist
it is He who made flawless the tides, the moon and the sun..
it is HE who cycled the weather to its rhythm
it is He who spins the globe on the askewed angle..

but do the cycle fail?
do we feel the earth tumbling from its axis and twirling in another direction?
does the sun rise from various positions each day?
or does the moon stops becoming full?

have u wondered..
how come amist this impeccability there is chaos?
is it not strange to think that a carpenter would destroy his masterpiece..?
nah..

it is the termites which bite into the wood..
eating away every painstalking effort..

it is amazing...
everything..

perhaps its time for us to open our eyes and see with our hearts..
perhaps we should stop listening to the words of hatred
but start listening to sounds of the oceans..

perhaps its time for us to look around us
and not at the reflection of ourselves..
we might think that our inventions prevail all..
yet we can't create a knee that can replace the functions of a broken one..
let alone can we create another species just like us..

it is truly amazing..

everyday now when i reach home..
i think about the wanders about this world..
the beauty of the human creation..
if u could only see wad i see..
perhaps then ull understand what i mean..

..i realised today that i m driven by anger,irritation and passion..
each day i discover more about myself that i never really knew..
its amazing..
ull think that 19 years of being with myself ..
i would have comprehended how i behave..
but just like you..
i m discovering my secrets that i never knew..
but someone greater is the keeper of these secrets
and HE is taking HIS time revealing it to me..
but ill wait..for there is no urgency..
for tomorrow might not even be..

2008-11-08T23:01:00.002+08:00

i am really greatful for everything ive gotten now..
really deep down heart felt gratitude..
by saying that i m happy is an understatement..
i m beyond happiness..
how to descirbe this feeling i know not..
but ill try..

its the feeling that gives satisfaction...
comfort..makes u smile but not laugh..a warmth in the heart..
yea..perhaps the feeling of a new born baby..
craddled in the arms of her mother..
envoloped in warmth and love..

aniwaes i am tankful for that feeling (alhamdurillah)
thankful for my family and my wonderful beautiful friends
lydia..renu..naz and miru..

today it was nice bumping into Zong ling on the way to dhoughby..
we had a good chat..i hope that he'll do well in wadeva he does..
aniwaes...
then met up with renu, lyd and aidhil
it was comfortable..
we only sat together for 2 hours..but it felt fullfilling..
it was very comforting..
you noe that this reminds me of the promise we made to each other..
when we were sec 3..
4 years ago..

best freinds shouldn't have to fill silences with words..
best friends should take without asking..
best friends should be there whenever needed..

and my best friends have kept true to their words...
for that i am grateful..and touched..
love ya guys..

2008-10-26T02:55:00.002+08:00

i m super exhausted...

its almost 3 in the morning and i have finally gotten about to finishing the collecting-dust-2 year-old brochure!! i m so freaking pissed that the hotmail is giving me problems...and that the main picture can't be uploaded...sigh..

well atleast i hope to finishing the brochure by this year!!

seriously do..even if i have to do it alone.. since i hate it to leave things hanging esp when there are people depended on it..

today was heartwarming..i finally found the opportunity to volunteer close to home!! finally.. and sadly it aint the for the deaf society or the cancer foundation!!

sigh i m so dissapointed that the cancer foundation outrightly rejected my volunteer application by stating something along the lines of " we are in no urgent need of volunteers" SIGH i suppose they are only interested in donations..

there my dream of volunteering in the cancer society has been crushed..well ill persist ( i have sent them a second application form all filled up..haha)

aniwaes burt really is scaring the wits out of me..he noes so much of anat, physio, and everything!! man i really need to start studying now..so many people are scaring me..sigh.. (to think that i wanted my uni life to be a breeze with minimum effort and maximum results...)

sigh my legs are aching from a captains ball game..and to think that i din't do much ( was afraid that ill sweat and ten stink coz i tot i had religious class str after)..and still i managed to get an aching hamstring and calf (wadeva muscle)

aniwaes today was fun..lovely..its almost half a year since i last volunteered.. oh and it feels so satisfying! So ofcourse i nd ta tank Zhu ting for giving me the opportunity..and vicky, yiyan and burt for being super nice people..

Now i realise that i have suddenly been filled by numerous responsibilities!! oh man!!

1) the brochure (thats a long over due one)

2) The youth GRC thingy (argh!! got so many meetings!)

3) NYPMS ( in the commitee for the doa thingy)

4) the Minds thing (the one i went for today..)

and all somehow are gonna be during the december to jan part!! man..i really have started going back to the aneesa i have always been ( and i really wanted to NOT be responsible for a gd year)

seems like i can't maintain my goals!!

wich reminds me..i need to start hitting those dust collecting books!

(my exams are around december too!)

well at least this term does look brighter..

boy m i glad!

alhamdurillah!

see ya

2008-10-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

I finally got the timetable. It looks sad.. except for perhaps Wednesdays and odd Mondays and week 6 to 9 of Fridays.. other than that almost every other day ends at 6!!
i think ill feel better after getting the manuals and seeing all the e days we can get..
on the brighter side physiology is only 4 credits!! that means its okay if i don't do well for physio!! oh man i can't wait for the next hols..I think after the term break it'll be good!! coz skool will probably for only 4 weeks!! man can't wait for term break and that'll be in a good 2 months time..not that long considering that this 1.5 months just flew..so if all is good perhaps the new term will bring more smiles and a better looking report slip ;P

oh i don't know wads wrong but the internet is excruciatingly slow today..3 more days before skool starts..hope its good news..

get over and done with it..

2008-10-06T23:40:00.005+08:00

Great, the nyp portal doesn't tell me my timetable...
sigh..
i keep telling miru 2.5 more years..

i recall..those were the exact words i told 2 years ago..
its just that i said 2 more years...

finally the wait was over and now although i m doing
something i m so passionate abt..

but i aint passionate abt the studying part..
i love the doing part..
i was telling my mum..if i could only skip the studying part..
i fell in love with the work..the doing of physiotherapy..
not the learning..

sigh..
but to reach there..i must first pass the huge mountain that always has annoyed me..

the passion to study has faded..

it faded the day i finished my o levels..

then

i tricked myself into doing a levels..

now i m deciving myself again..

sigh..
i can't wait for the 2.5 years to be over..

(oh i m not including the 1 yr of degree conversion coz i tink then itll be fun as mostly itll be hands on...no more studying..more of passion..)

so on a depressing note..i can't wait for skool to start..
note coz i m in love wif skool..
just coz i wanna get over and done with it..
all of it..

2008-10-01T23:20:00.013+08:00

The Formula Race was great..

to tink that only a year ago i got crazily in love with the F1 is pretty surprisin'

Really glad that it happened in SINGAPORE tis year

and mark my words ill be gettin a ticket for the any one of the F1 races in the next 4 years!!

Ofcourse i m still rooting for Lewis Hamilton!!

Its amazing wad willpower can do and that guy has skills that no-one has.

no i m not exgaggerating..

tink about it a 23 year old that almost won the championships in his first year!

I mean its annoying that people are critising him for not getting a hold of it.

But to put things in perspective..what he has achieved is really a great deal and

no one has achieved it yet!

In his first year he breezed through almost all the races..

he did a great job although his car stalled for half a second which lead to his loss..

he might be arrogant..or he might not..

but wad really matters is if he deserves what he has won..

it was because of his efforts that he won

not because of others losses..

so to all the jealous people out there..

it was because of sheer hardwork and not due to crafty tackles that he won..

so what if he din't win the champions last year..he is still a winner in many ways..

beyond which a shallow mind can perceive..

to me he is a winner..(doesn't matter wad u sae..its a free country after all)

and best of luck to him and the team..

may be they will win the grand prix championship this year..

but it doesn't matter

for may believe that they are already winners...

and im one of them..

on another note:

Selamat Hari Raya!!

I wld like to take tis opportunity to apologise to you for my wrongdoings and shortcomings..

if i hurt u, i definitly din't mean to..

and if i did something that u disliked or found insulting, i m very sorry.

hope u will accept my appologies.

take care

toodles

2008-09-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

life is good alhamdurillah. This week has been great.. though today was disappointing for a tiny-winy while..but guess wad i really love NYPMS...allhamdurillah..

tuesdae was funny though.. was such a super hectic dae..

started off seein tasneem akka and her friend..

went to work =)

went to bbq (for 10-20 minutes) ( the ride was so long that i was late for both the bbq and the
iftar at mum aunt's house)

went for iftar at aunt's home (and 4got that it was my cuzin's burfdae!!..they were waiting for me so that they could cut the cake..but i was too late..i m touched..)

2008-09-17T12:02:00.007+08:00

I wanted to share this article with you. I think its worth pondering over.

Take note that the writer is not a Muslim and thus there is no reason for him to side with muslims unless it is the truth. (It is a pretty long article)

Was America Attacked by Muslims on 9/11?

By David Ray Griffin

09/09/08 "ICH" -- - Much of America's foreign policy since 9/11 has been based on the assumption that it was attacked by Muslims on that day. This assumption was used, most prominently, to justify the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq. It is now widely agreed that the use of 9/11 as a basis for attacking Iraq was illegitimate: none of the hijackers were Iraqis, there was no working relation between Saddam Hussein and Osama bin Laden, and Iraq was not behind the anthrax attacks. But it is still widely believed that the US attack on Afghanistan was justified. For example, the New York Times, while referring to the US attack on Iraq as a "war of choice," calls the battle in Afghanistan a "war of necessity." Time magazine has dubbed it "the right war." And Barack Obama says that one reason to wind down our involvement in Iraq is to have the troops and resources to "go after the people in Afghanistan who actually attacked us on 9/11."

The assumption that America was attacked by Muslims on 9/11 also lies behind the widespread perception of Islam as an inherently violent religion and therefore of Muslims as guilty until proven innocent. This perception surely contributed to attempts to portray Obama as a Muslim, which was lampooned by a controversial cartoon on the July 21, 2008, cover of The New Yorker.

As could be illustrated by reference to many other post-9/11 developments, including as spying, torture, extraordinary rendition, military tribunals, America's new doctrine of preemptive war, and its enormous increase in military spending, the assumption that the World Trade Center and the Pentagon were attacked by Muslim hijackers has had enormous negative consequences for both international and domestic issues.1

Is it conceivable that this assumption might be false? Insofar as Americans and Canadians would say "No," they would express their belief that this assumption is not merely an "assumption" but is instead based on strong evidence. When actually examined, however, the proffered evidence turns out to be remarkably weak. I will illustrate this point by means of 16 questions.

1. Were Mohamed Atta and the Other Hijackers Devout Muslims?

The picture of the hijackers conveyed by the 9/11 Commission is that they were devout Muslims. Mohamed Atta, considered the ringleader, was said to have become very religious, even "fanatically so."2 Being devout Muslims, they could be portrayed as ready to meet their Maker---as a "cadre of trained operatives willing to die."3

But this portrayal is contradicted by various newspaper stories. The San Francisco Chronicle reported that Atta and other hijackers had made "at least six trips" to Las Vegas, where they had "engaged in some decidedly un-Islamic sampling of prohibited pleasures." These activities were "un-Islamic" because, as the head of the Islamic Foundation of Nevada pointed out: "True Muslims don't drink, don't gamble, don't go to strip clubs."4

One might, to be sure, rationalize this behavior by supposing that these were momentary lapses and that, as 9/11 approached, these young Muslims had repented and prepared for heaven. But in the days just before 9/11, Atta and others were reported to be drinking heavily, cavorting with lap dancers, and bringing call girls to their rooms. Temple University Professor Mahmoud Ayoub said: "It is incomprehensible that a person could drink and go to a strip bar one night, then kill themselves the next day in the name of Islam. . . . Something here does not add up."5

In spite of the fact that these activities were reported by mainstream newspapers and even the Wall Street Journal editorial page,6 the 9/11 Commission wrote as if these reports did not exist, saying: "we have seen no credible evidence explaining why, on [some occasions], the operatives flew to or met in Las Vegas."7

2. Do Authorities Have Hard Evidence of Osama bin Laden's Responsibility for 9/11?

Whatever be the truth about the devoutness of the hijackers, one might reply, there is certainly no doubt about the fact that they were acting under the guidance of Osama bin Laden. The attack on Afghanistan was based on the claim that bin Laden was behind the attacks, and the 9/11 Commission's report was written as if there were no question about this claim. But neither the Bush administration nor the Commission provided any proof for it.

Two weeks after 9/11, Secretary of State Colin Powell, speaking to Tim Russert on "Meet the Press," said he expected "in the near future . . . to put out . . . a document that will describe quite clearly the evidence that we have linking [bin Laden] to this attack."8 But at a press conference with President Bush the next morning, Powell reversed himself, saying that although the government had information that left no question of bin Laden's responsibility, "most of it is classified."9 According to Seymour Hersh, citing officials from both the CIA and the Department of Justice, the real reason for the reversal was a "lack of solid information."10

That same week, Bush had demanded that the Taliban turn over bin Laden. But the Taliban, reported CNN, "refus[ed] to hand over bin Laden without proof or evidence that he was involved in last week's attacks on the United States." The Bush administration, saying "[t]here is already an indictment of Osama bin Laden" [for the attacks in Tanzania, Kenya, and elsewhere]," rejected the demand for evidence with regard to 9/11.11

The task of providing such evidence was taken up by British Prime Minister Tony Blair, who on October 4 made public a document entitled "Responsibility for the Terrorist Atrocities in the United States." Listing "clear conclusions reached by the government," it stated: "Osama Bin Laden and al-Qaeda, the terrorist network which he heads, planned and carried out the atrocities on 11 September 2001."12

Blair's report, however, began by saying: "This document does not purport to provide a prosecutable case against Osama Bin Laden in a court of law." This weakness was noted the next day by the BBC, which said: "There is no direct evidence in the public domain linking Osama Bin Laden to the 11 September attacks. At best the evidence is circumstantial."13

After the US had attacked Afghanistan, a senior Taliban official said: "We have asked for proof of Osama's involvement, but they have refused. Why?"14 The answer to this question may be suggested by the fact that, to this day, the FBI's "Most Wanted Terrorist" webpage on bin Laden, while listing him as wanted for bombings in Dar es Salaam, Tanzania, and Nairobi, makes no mention of 9/11.15

When the FBI's chief of investigative publicity was asked why not, he replied: "The reason why 9/11 is not mentioned on Usama Bin Laden's Most Wanted page is because the FBI has no hard evidence connecting Bin Laden to 9/11."16

It is often claimed that bin Laden's guilt is proved by a video, reportedly found by US intelligence officers in Afghanistan in November 2001, in which bin Laden appears to report having planned the attacks. But critics, pointing out various problems with this "confession video," have called it a fake.17 General Hamid Gul, a former head of Pakistan's ISI, said: "I think there is an Osama Bin Laden look-alike."18 Actually, the man in the video is not even much of a look-alike, being heavier and darker than bin Laden, having a broader nose, wearing jewelry, and writing with his right hand.19 The FBI, in any case, obviously does not consider this video hard evidence of bin Laden's responsibility for 9/11.

What about the 9/11 Commission? I mentioned earlier that it gave the impression of having had solid evidence of bin Laden's guilt. But Thomas Kean and Lee Hamilton, the Commission's co-chairs, undermined this impression in their follow-up book subtitled "the inside story of the 9/11 Commission."20

Whenever the Commission had cited evidence for bin Ladin's responsibility, the note in the back of the book always referred to CIA-provided information that had (presumably) been elicited during interrogations of al-Qaeda operatives. By far the most important of these operatives was Khalid Sheikh Mohammed (KSM), described as the "mastermind" of the 9/11 attacks. The Commission, for example, wrote:

Bin Ladin . . . finally decided to give the green light for the 9/11 operation sometime in late 1998 or early 1999. . . . Bin Ladin also soon selected four individuals to serve as suicide operatives. . . . Atta---whom Bin Ladin chose to lead the group---met with Bin Ladin several times to receive additional instructions, including a preliminary list of approved targets: the World Trade Center, the Pentagon, and the U.S. Capitol.21

The note for each of these statements says "interrogation of KSM."22

Kean and Hamilton, however, reported that they had no success in "obtaining access to star witnesses in custody . . . , most notably Khalid Sheikh Mohammed."23 Besides not being allowed to interview these witnesses, they were not permitted to observe the interrogations through one-way glass or even to talk to the interrogators.24 Therefore, they complained: "We . . . had no way of evaluating the credibility of detainee information. How could we tell if someone such as Khalid Sheikh Mohammed . . . was telling us the truth?"25

An NBC "deep background" report in 2008 pointed out an additional problem: KSM and the other al-Qaeda leaders had been subjected to "enhanced interrogation techniques," i.e., torture, and it is now widely acknowledged that statements elicited by torture lack credibility. "At least four of the operatives whose interrogation figured in the 9/11 Commission Report," this NBC report pointed out, "have claimed that they told interrogators critical information as a way to stop being "-tortured.'" NBC then quoted Michael Ratner, president of the Center for Constitutional Rights, as saying: "Most people look at the 9/11 Commission Report as a trusted historical document. If their conclusions were supported by information gained from torture, . . . their conclusions are suspect."26

Accordingly, neither the White House, the British government, the FBI, nor the 9/11 Commission has provided solid evidence that Osama bin Laden was behind 9/11.

3. Was Evidence of Muslim Hijackers Provided by Phone Calls from the Airliners?

Nevertheless, many readers may respond, there can be no doubt that the airplanes were taken over by al-Qaeda hijackers, because their presence and actions on the planes were reported on phone calls by passengers and flight attendants, with cell phone calls playing an especially prominent role.

The most famous of the reported calls were from CNN commentator Barbara Olson to her husband, US Solicitor General Ted Olson. According to CNN, he reported that his wife had "called him twice on a cell phone from American Airlines Flight 77," saying that "all passengers and flight personnel, including the pilots, were herded to the back of the plane by . . . hijackers [armed with] knives and cardboard cutters."27

Although these reported calls, as summarized by Ted Olson, did not describe the hijackers so as to suggest that they were members of al-Qaeda, such descriptions were supplied by calls from other flights, especially United 93, from which about a dozen cell phone calls were reportedly received before it crashed in Pennsylvania. According to a Washington Post story of September 13,

[P]assenger Jeremy Glick used a cell phone to tell his wife, Lyzbeth, . . . that the Boeing 757's cockpit had been taken over by three Middle Eastern-looking men. . . . The terrorists, wearing red headbands, had ordered the pilots, flight attendants and passengers to the rear of the plane.28

A story about a "cellular phone conversation" between flight attendant Sandra Bradshaw and her husband gave this report:

She said the plane had been taken over by three men with knives. She had gotten a close look at one of the hijackers. . . . "He had an Islamic look," she told her husband. 29

From these calls, therefore, the public was informed that the hijackers looked Middle Eastern and even Islamic.

Still more specific information was reportedly conveyed during a 12-minute cell phone call from flight attendant Amy Sweeney on American Flight 11, which was to crash into the North Tower of the World Trade Center.30 After reaching American Airlines employee Michael Woodward and telling him that men of "Middle Eastern descent" had hijacked her flight, she then gave him their seat numbers, from which he was able to learn the identity of Mohamed Atta and two other hijackers.31 Amy Sweeney's call was critical, ABC News explained, because without it "the plane might have crashed with no one certain the man in charge was tied to al Qaeda."32

There was, however, a big problem with these reported calls: Given the technology available in 2001, cell phone calls from airliners at altitudes of more than a few thousand feet, especially calls lasting more than a few seconds, were not possible, and yet these calls, some of which reportedly lasted a minute or more, reportedly occurred when the planes were above 30,000 or even 40,000 feet. This problem was explained by some credible people, including scientist A.K. Dewdney, who for many years had written a column for Scientific American.33

Although some defenders of the official account, such as Popular Mechanics, have disputed the contention that high-altitude calls from airliners were impossible,34 the fact is that the FBI, after having at first supported the claims that such calls were made, withdrew this support a few years later.

With regard to the reported 12-minute call from Amy Sweeney to Michael Woodward, an affidavit signed by FBI agent James Lechner and dated September 12 (2001) stated that, according to Woodward, Sweeney had been "using a cellular telephone."35 But when the 9/11 Commission discussed this call in its Report, which appeared in July 2004, it declared that Sweeney had used an onboard phone.36

Behind that change was an implausible claim made by the FBI earlier in 2004: Although Woodward had failed to mention this when FBI agent Lechner interviewed him on 9/11, he had repeated Sweeney's call verbatim to a colleague in his office, who had in turn repeated it to another colleague at American headquarters in Dallas, who had recorded it; and this recording---which was discovered only in 2004---indicated that Sweeney had used a passenger-seat phone, thanks to "an AirFone card, given to her by another flight attendant."37

This claim is implausible because, if this relayed recording had really been made on 9/11, we cannot believe that Woodward would have failed to mention it to FBI agent Lechner later that same day. While Lechner was taking notes, Woodward would surely have said: "You don't need to rely on my memory. There is a recording of a word-for-word repetition of Sweeney's statements down in Dallas." It is also implausible that Woodward, having repeated Sweeney's statement that she had used "an AirFone card, given to her by another flight attendant," would have told Lechner, as the latter's affidavit says, that Sweeney had been "using a cellular telephone."

Lechner's affidavit shows that the FBI at first supported the claim that Sweeney had made a 12-minute cell phone call from a high-altitude airliner. Does not the FBI's change of story, after its first version had been shown to be technologically impossible, create the suspicion that the entire story was a fabrication?

This suspicion is reinforced by the FBI's change of story in relation to United Flight 93. Although we were originally told that this flight had been the source of about a dozen cell phone calls, some of them when the plane was above 40,000 feet, the FBI gave a very different report at the 2006 trial of Zacarias Moussaoui, the so-called 20th hijacker. The FBI spokesman said: "13 of the terrified passengers and crew members made 35 air phone calls and two cell phone calls."38 Instead of there having been about a dozen cell phone calls from Flight 93, the FBI declared in 2005, there were really only two.

Why were two calls still said to have been possible? They were reportedly made at 9:58, when the plane was reportedly down to 5,000 feet.39 Although that was still pretty high for successful cell phone calls in 2001, these calls, unlike calls from 30,000 feet or higher, would have been at least arguably possible.

If the truth of the FBI's new account is assumed, how can one explain the fact that so many people had reported receiving cell phone calls? In most cases, it seems, these people had been told by the callers that they were using cell phones. For example, a Newsweek story about United 93 said: "Elizabeth Wainio, 27, was speaking to her stepmother in Maryland. Another passenger, she explains, had loaned her a cell phone and told her to call her family."40 In such cases, we might assume that the people receiving the calls had simply mis-heard, or mis-remembered, what they had been told. But this would mean positing that about a dozen people had made the same mistake.

An even more serious difficulty is presented by the case of Deena Burnett, who said that she had received three to five calls from her husband, Tom Burnett. She knew he was using his cell phone, she reported to the FBI that very day and then to the press and in a book, because she had recognized his cell phone number on her phone's Caller ID.41 We cannot suppose her to have been mistaken about this. We also, surely, cannot accuse her of lying.

Therefore, if we accept the FBI's report, according to which Tom Burnett did not make any cell phone calls from Flight 93, we can only conclude that the calls were faked---that Deena Burnett was duped. Although this suggestion may at first sight seem outlandish, there are three facts that, taken together, show it to be more probable than any of the alternatives.

First, voice morphing technology was sufficiently advanced at that time to make faking the calls feasible. A 1999 Washington Post article described demonstrations in which the voices of two generals, Colin Powell and Carl Steiner, were heard saying things they had never said.42

Second, there are devices with which you can fake someone's telephone number, so that it will show up on the recipient's Caller ID.43

Third, the conclusion that the person who called Deena Burnett was not her husband is suggested by various features of the calls. For example, when Deena told the caller that "the kids" were asking to talk to him, he said: "Tell them I'll talk to them later." This was 20 minutes after Tom had purportedly realized that the hijackers were on a suicide mission, planning to "crash this plane into the ground," and 10 minutes after he and other passengers had allegedly decided that as soon as they were "over a rural area" they must try to gain control of the plane. Also, the hijackers had reportedly already killed one person.44 Given all this, the real Tom Burnett would have known that he would likely die, one way or another, in the next few minutes. Is it believable that, rather than taking this probably last opportunity to speak to his children, he would say that he would "talk to them later"? Is it not more likely that "Tom" made this statement to avoid revealing that he knew nothing about "the kids," perhaps not even their names?

Further evidence that the calls were faked is provided by timing problems in some of them. According to the 9/11 Commission, Flight 93 crashed at 10:03 as a result of the passenger revolt, which began at 9:57. However, according to Lyzbeth Glick's account of the aforementioned cell phone call from her husband, Jeremy Glick, she told him about the collapse of the South Tower, and that did not occur until 9:59, two minutes after the alleged revolt had started. After that, she reported, their conversation continued for several more minutes before he told her that the passengers were taking a vote about whether to attack. According to Lyzbeth Glick's account, therefore, the revolt was only beginning by 10:03, when the plane (according to the official account) was crashing.45

A timing problem also occurred in the aforementioned call from flight attendant Amy Sweeney. While she was describing the hijackers, according to the FBI's account of her call, they stormed and took control of the cockpit.46 However, although the hijacking of Flight 11 "began at 8:14 or shortly thereafter," the 9/11 Commission said, Sweeney's call did not go through until 8:25.47 Her alleged call, in other words, described the hijacking as beginning over 11 minutes after it, according to the official timeline, had been successfully carried out.

Multiple lines of evidence, therefore, imply that the cell phone calls were faked. This fact has vast implications, because it implies that all the reported calls from the planes, including those from onboard phones, were faked. Why? Because if the planes had really been taken over in surprise hijackings, no one would have been ready to make fake cell phone calls.

Moreover, the FBI, besides implying, most clearly in the case of Deena Burnett, that the phone calls reporting the hijackings had been faked, comes right out and says, in its report about calls from Flight 77, that no calls from Barbara Olson occurred. It does mention her. But besides attributing only one call to her, not two, the FBI report refers to it as an "unconnected call," which (of course) lasted "0 seconds."48 In 2006, in other words, the FBI, which is part of the Department of Justice, implied that the story told by the DOJ's former solicitor general was untrue. Although not mentioned by the press, this was an astounding development.

This FBI report leaves only two possible explanations for Ted Olson's story: Either he made it up or else he, like Deena Burnett and several others, was duped. In either case, the story about Barbara Olson's calls, with their reports of hijackers taking over Flight 77, was based on deception.

The opening section of The 9/11 Commission Report is entitled "Inside the Four Flights." The information contained in this section is based almost entirely on the reported phone calls. But if the reported calls were faked, we have no idea what happened inside these planes. Insofar as the idea that the planes were taken over by hijackers who looked "Middle Eastern," even "Islamic," has been based on the reported calls, this idea is groundless.

4. Was the Presence of Hijackers Proved by a Radio Transmission "from American 11"?

It might be objected, in reply, that this is not true, because we know that American Flight 11, at least, was hijacked, thanks to a radio transmission in which the voice of one of its hijackers is heard. According to the 9/11 Commission, the air traffic controller for this flight heard a radio transmission at 8:25 AM in which someone---widely assumed to be Mohamed Atta---told the passengers: "We have some planes. Just stay quiet, and you'll be okay. We are returning to the airport." After quoting this transmission, the Commission wrote: "The controller told us that he then knew it was a hijacking."49 Was this transmission not indeed proof that Flight 11 had been hijacked?

It might provide such proof if we knew that, as the Commission claimed, the "transmission came from American 11."50 But we do not. According to the FAA's "Summary of Air Traffic Hijack Events," published September 17, 2001, the transmission was "from an unknown origin."51 Bill Peacock, the FAA's air traffic director, said: "We didn't know where the transmission came from."52 The Commission's claim that it came from American 11 was merely an inference. The transmission could have come from the same room from which the calls to Deena Burnett originated.

Therefore, the alleged radio transmission from Flight 11, like the alleged phone calls from the planes, provides no evidence that the planes were taken over by al-Qaeda hijackers.

5. Did Passports and a Headband Provide Evidence that al-Qaeda Operatives Were on the Flights?

However, the government's case for al-Qaeda hijackers on also rested in part on claims that passports and a headband belonging to al-Qaeda operatives were found at the crash sites. But these claims are patently absurd.

A week after the attacks, the FBI reported that a search of the streets after the destruction of the World Trade Center had discovered the passport of one of the Flight 11 hijackers, Satam al-Suqami.53 But this claim did not pass the giggle test. "[T]he idea that [this] passport had escaped from that inferno unsinged," wrote one British reporter, "would [test] the credulity of the staunchest supporter of the FBI's crackdown on terrorism."54

By 2004, when the 9/11 Commission was discussing the alleged discovery of this passport, the story had been modified to say that "a passer-by picked it up and gave it to a NYPD detective shortly before the World Trade Center towers collapsed."55 So, rather than needing to survive the collapse of the North Tower, the passport merely needed to escape from the plane's cabin, avoid being destroyed or even singed by the instantaneous jet-fuel fire, and then escape from the building so that it could fall to the ground! Equally absurd is the claim that the passport of Ziad Jarrah, the alleged pilot of Flight 93, was found at this plane's crash site in Pennsylvania.56 This passport was reportedly found on the ground even though there was virtually nothing at the site to indicate that an airliner had crashed there. The reason for this absence of wreckage, we were told, was that the plane had been headed downward at 580 miles per hour and, when it hit the spongy Pennsylvania soil, buried itself deep in the ground. New York Times journalist Jere Longman, surely repeating what he had been told by authorities, wrote: "The fuselage accordioned on itself more than thirty feet into the porous, backfilled ground. It was as if a marble had been dropped into water."57 So, we are to believe, just before the plane buried itself in the earth, Jarrah's passport escaped from the cockpit and landed on the ground. Did Jarrah, going 580 miles per hour, have the window open?58 Also found on the ground, according to the government's evidence presented to the Moussaoui trial, was a red headband.59 This was considered evidence that al-Qaeda hijackers were on Flight 93 because they were, according to some of the phone calls, wearing red headbands. But besides being absurd for the same reason as was the claim about Jarrah's passport, this claim about the headband was problematic for another reason. Former CIA agent Milt Bearden, who helped train the Mujahideen fighters in Afghanistan, has pointed out that it would have been very unlikely that members of al-Qaeda would have worn such headbands:

[The red headband] is a uniquely Shi'a Muslim adornment. It is something that dates back to the formation of the Shi'a sect. . . . [I]t represents the preparation of he who wears this red headband to sacrifice his life, to murder himself for the cause. Sunnis are by and large most of the people following Osama bin Laden [and they] do not do this.60

We learned shortly after the invasion of Iraq that some people in the US government did not know the difference between Shi'a and Sunni Muslims. Did such people decide that the hijackers would be described as wearing red headbands?

6. Did the Information in Atta's Luggage Prove the Responsibility of al-Qaeda Operatives?

I come now to the evidence that is said to provide the strongest proof that the planes had been hijacked by Mohamed Atta and other members of al-Qaeda. This evidence was reportedly found in two pieces of Atta's luggage that were discovered inside the Boston airport after the attacks. The luggage was there, we were told, because although Atta was already in Boston on September 10, he and another al-Qaeda operative, Abdul al-Omari, rented a blue Nissan and drove up to Portland, Maine, and stayed overnight. They caught a commuter flight back to Boston early the next morning in time to get on American Flight 11, but Atta's luggage did not make it.

This luggage, according to the FBI affidavit signed by James Lechner, contained much incriminating material, including a handheld flight computer, flight simulator manuals, two videotapes about Boeing aircraft, a slide-rule flight calculator, a copy of the Koran, and Atta's last will and testament.61 This material was widely taken as proof that al-Qaeda and hence Osama bin Laden were behind the 9/11 attacks.

When closely examined, however, the Atta-to-Portland story loses all credibility.

One problem is the very idea that Atta would have planned to take all these things in baggage that was to be transferred to Flight 11. What good would a flight computer and other flying aids do inside a suitcase in the plane's luggage compartment? Why would he have planned to take his will on a plane he planned to crash into the World Trade Center?

A second problem involves the question of why Atta's luggage did not get transferred onto Flight 11. According to an Associated Press story that appeared four days after 9/11, Atta's flight "arrived at Logan . . . just in time for him to connect with American Airlines flight 11 to Los Angeles, but too late for his luggage to be loaded."62 The 9/11 Commission had at one time evidently planned to endorse this claim.63 But when The 9/11 Commission Report appeared, it said: "Atta and Omari arrived in Boston at 6:45" and then "checked in and boarded American Airlines Flight 11," which was "scheduled to depart at 7:45."64 By thus admitting that there was almost a full hour for the luggage to be transferred to Flight 11, the Commission was left with no explanation as to why it was not.

Still another problem with the Atta-to-Portland story was the question why he would have taken this trip. If the commuter flight had been late, Atta, being the ringleader of the hijackers as well as the intended pilot for Flight 11, would have had to call off the whole operation, which he had reportedly been planning for two years. The 9/11 Commission, like the FBI before it, admitted that it had no answer to this question.65

The fourth and biggest problem with the story, however, is that it did not appear until September 16, five days after 9/11, following the collapse of an earlier story.

According to news reports immediately after 9/11, the incriminating materials, rather than being found in Atta's luggage inside the airport, were found in a white Mitsubishi, which Atta had left in the Boston airport parking lot. Two hijackers did drive a blue Nissan to Portland and then take the commuter flight back to Boston the next morning, but their names were Adnan and Ameer Bukhari.66 This story fell apart on the afternoon of September 13, when it was discovered that the Bukharis, to whom authorities had reportedly been led by material in the Nissan at the Portland Jetport, had not died on 9/11: Adnan was still alive and Ameer had died the year before.67

The next day, September 14, an Associated Press story said that it was Atta and a companion who had driven the blue Nissan to Portland, stayed overnight, and then taken the commuter flight back to Boston. The incriminating materials, however, were still said to have been found in a car in the Boston airport, which was now said to have been rented by "additional suspects."68 Finally, on September 16, a Washington Post story, besides saying that the Nissan had been taken to Portland by Atta and al-Omari, specified that the incriminating material had been found in Atta's luggage inside the Boston airport.69

Given this history of the Atta-to-Portland story, how can we avoid the conclusion that it was a fabrication?

7. Were al-Qaeda Operatives Captured on Airport Security Videos?

Still another type of evidence for the claim that al-Qaeda operatives were on the planes consisted of frames from videos, purportedly taken by airport security cameras, said to show hijackers checking into airports. Shortly after the attacks, for example, photos showing Atta and al-Omari at an airport "were flashed round the world."70 However, although it was widely assumed that these photos were from the airport at Boston, they were really from the airport at Portland. No photos showing Atta or any of the other alleged hijackers at Boston's Logan Airport were ever produced. We at best have photographic evidence that Atta and al-Omari were at the Portland airport.

Moreover, in light of the fact that the story of Atta and al-Omari going to Portland was apparently a late invention, we might expect the photographic evidence that they were at the Portland Jetport on the morning of September 11 to be problematic. And indeed it is. It shows Atta and Omari without either jackets or ties on, whereas the Portland ticket agent said that they had been wearing jackets and ties.71 Also, a photo showing Atta and al-Omari passing through the security checkpoint is marked both 05:45 and 05:53.72

Another airport video was distributed on the day in 2004 that The 9/11 Commission Report was published. The Associated Press, using a frame from it as corroboration of the official story, provided this caption:

Hijacker Khalid al-Mihdhar . . . passes through the security checkpoint at Dulles International Airport in Chantilly, Va., Sept. 11 2001, just hours before American Airlines Flight 77 crashed into the Pentagon in this image from a surveillance video.73

However, as Rowland Morgan and Ian Henshall have pointed out,

a normal security video has time and date burned into the integral video image by proprietary equipment according to an authenticated pattern, along with camera identification and the location that the camera covered. The video released in 2004 contained no such data.74

The Associated Press notwithstanding, therefore, this video contains no evidence that it was taken at Dulles on September 11.

Another problem with this so-called Dulles video is that, although one of the men on it was identified by the 9/11 Commission as Hani Hanjour,75 he "does not remotely resemble Hanjour." Whereas Hanjour was thin and had a receding hairline (as shown by a photo taken six days before 9/11), the man in the video had a somewhat muscular build and a full head of hair, with no receding hairline.76

In sum: Video proof that the named hijackers checked into airports on 9/11 is nonexistent. Besides the fact that the videos purportedly showing hijackers for Flights 11 and 77 reek of inauthenticity, there are no videos even purportedly showing the hijackers for the other two flights. If these 19 men had really checked into the Boston and Dulles airports that day, there should be authentic security videos to prove this.

8. Were the Names of the "Hijackers" on the Passenger Manifests?

What about the passenger manifests, which list all the passengers on the flights? If the alleged hijackers purchased tickets and boarded the flights, their names would have been on the manifests for these flights. And we were told that they were. According to counterterrorism coordinator Richard Clarke, the FBI told him at about 10:00 that morning that it recognized the names of some al-Qaeda operatives on passenger manifests it had received from the airlines.77 As to how the FBI itself acquired its list, Robert Bonner, the head of Customs and Border Protection, said to the 9/11 Commission in 2004:

On the morning of 9/11, through an evaluation of data related to the passenger manifest for the four terrorist hijacked aircraft, Customs Office of Intelligence was able to identify the likely terrorist hijackers. Within 45 minutes of the attacks, Customs forwarded the passenger lists with the names of the victims and 19 probable hijackers to the FBI and the intelligence community.78

Under questioning, Bonner added:

We were able to pull from the airlines the passenger manifest for each of the four flights. We ran the manifest through [our lookout] system. . . . [B]y 11:00 AM, I'd seen a sheet that essentially identified the 19 probable hijackers. And in fact, they turned out to be, based upon further follow-up in detailed investigation, to be the 19.79

Bonner's statement, however, is doubly problematic. In the first place, the initial FBI list, as reported by CNN on September 13 and 14, contained only 18 names.80 Why would that be if 19 men had already been identified on 9/11?

Second, several of the names on the FBI's first list, having quickly become problematic, were replaced by other names. For example, the previously discussed men named Bukhari, thought to be brothers, were replaced on American 11's list of hijackers by brothers named Waleed and Wail al-Shehri. Two other replacements for this flight were Satam al-Suqami, whose passport was allegedly found at Ground Zero, and Abdul al-Omari, who allegedly went to Portland with Atta the day before 9/11. Also, the initial list for American 77 did not include the name of Hani Hanjour, who would later be called the pilot of this flight. Rather, it contained a name that, after being read aloud by a CNN correspondent, was transcribed "Mosear Caned."81 All in all, the final list of 19 hijackers contained six names that were not on the original list of 18---a fact that contradicts Bonner's claim that by 11:00 AM on 9/11 his agency had identified 19 probable hijackers who, in fact, "turned out to be. . . the 19."

These replacements to the initial list also undermine the claim that Amy Sweeney, by giving the seat numbers of three of the hijackers to Michael Woodward of American Airlines, allowed him to identify Atta and two others. This second claim is impossible because the two others were Abdul al-Omari and Satam al-Suqami,82 and they were replacements for two men on the original list---who, like Adnan Bukhari, turned up alive after 9/11.83 Woodward could not possibly have identified men who were not added to the list until several days later.84

For all these reasons, the claim that the names of the 19 alleged hijackers were on the airlines' passenger manifests must be considered false.

This conclusion is supported by the fact that the passenger manifests that were released to the public included no names of any of the 19 alleged hijackers and, in fact, no Middle Eastern names whatsoever.85 These manifests, therefore, support the suspicion that there were no al-Qaeda hijackers on the planes.

It might appear that this conclusion is contradicted by the fact that passenger manifests with the names of the alleged hijackers have appeared. A photocopy of a portion of an apparent passenger manifest for American Flight 11, with the names of three of the alleged hijackers, was published in a 2005 book by Terry McDermott, Perfect Soldiers: The 9/11 Hijackers.86 McDermott reportedly said that he received these manifests from the FBI.87 But the idea that these were the original manifests is problematic.

For one thing, they were not included in the evidence presented by the FBI to the Moussaoui trial in 2006.88 If even the FBI will not cite them as evidence, why should anyone think they are genuine?

Another problem with these purported manifests, copies of which can be viewed on the Internet,89 is that they show signs of being late creations. One such sign is that Ziad Jarrah's last name is spelled correctly, whereas in the early days after 9/11, the FBI was referring to him as "Jarrahi," as news reports from the time show.90 A second sign is that the manifest for American Flight 77 contains Hani Hanjour's name, even though its absence from the original list of hijackers had led the Washington Post to wonder why Hanjour's "name was not on the American Airlines manifest for the flight."91 A third sign is that the purported manifest for American Flight 11 contains the names of Wail al-Shehri, Waleed al-Shehri, Satam al-Suqami, and Abdul al-Omari, all of whom were added some days after 9/11.

In sum, no credible evidence that al-Qaeda operatives were on the flights is provided by the passenger manifests.

9. Did DNA Tests Identify Five Hijackers among the Victims at the Pentagon?

Another type of evidence that the alleged hijackers were really on the planes could have been provided by autopsies. But no such evidence has been forthcoming. In its book defending the official account of 9/11, to be sure, Popular Mechanics claims that, according to a report on the victims of the Pentagon attack by the Armed Forces Institute of Pathology: "The five hijackers were positively identified."92 But this claim is false.

According to a summary of this pathology report by Andrew Baker, M.D., the remains of 183 victims were subjected to DNA analysis, which resulted in "178 positive identifications." Although Baker says that "[s]ome remains for each of the terrorists were recovered," this was merely an inference from the fact that there were "five unique postmortem profiles that did not match any antemortem material provided by victims' families."93

A Washington Post story made even clearer the fact that this conclusion---that the unmatched remains were those of "the five hijackers"---was merely an inference. It wrote: "The remains of the five hijackers have been identified through a process of exclusion, as they did not match DNA samples contributed by family members of all 183 victims who died at the site" (emphasis added).94 All the report said, in other words, was that there were five bodies whose DNA did not match that of any of the known Pentagon victims or any of the regular passengers or crew members on Flight 77.

We have no way of knowing where these five bodies came from. For the claim that they came from the attack site at the Pentagon, we have only the word of the FBI and the military, which insisted on taking charge of the bodies of everyone killed at the Pentagon and transporting them to the Armed Forces Institute of Pathology.95

In any case, the alleged hijackers could have been positively identified only if samples had been obtained from their relatives, and there is no indication that this occurred. Indeed, one can wonder why not. The FBI had lots of information about the men identified as the hijackers. They could easily have located relatives. And these relatives, most of whom reportedly did not believe that their own flesh and blood had been involved in the attacks, would have surely been willing to supply the needed DNA. Indeed, a story about Ziad Jarrah, the alleged pilot of Flight 93, said: "Jarrah's family has indicated they would be willing to provide DNA samples to US researchers, . . . [but] the FBI has shown no interest thus far."96

The lack of positive identification of the alleged hijackers is consistent with the autopsy report, which was released to Dr. Thomas Olmsted, who had made a FOIA request for it. Like the flight manifest for Flight 77, he revealed, this report also contains no Arab names.97

10. Has the Claim That Some of the "Hijackers" Are Still Alive Been Debunked?

Another problem with the claim that the 19 hijackers were correctly identified on 9/11, or at least a few days later, is that some of the men on the FBI's final list reportedly turned up alive after 9/11. Although Der Spiegel and the BBC claim to have debunked these reports, I will show this is untrue by examining the case of one of the alleged hijackers, Waleed al-Shehri---who, we saw earlier, was a replacement for Adnan Bukhari, who himself had shown up alive after 9/11.

In spite of the fact that al-Shehri was a replacement, the 9/11 Commission revealed no doubts about his presence on Flight 11, speculating that he and his brother Wail---another replacement---stabbed two of the flight attendants.98 But the Commission certainly should have had doubts.

On September 22, 2001, the BBC published an article by David Bamford entitled "Hijack "-Suspect' Alive in Morocco." It showed that the Waleed al-Shehri identified by the FBI as one of the hijackers was still alive. Explaining why the problem could not be dismissed as a case of mistaken identity, Bamford wrote:

His photograph was released by the FBI, and has been shown in newspapers and on television around the world. That same Mr Al-Shehri has turned up in Morocco, proving clearly that he was not a member of the suicide attack. He told Saudi journalists in Casablanca that . . . he has now been interviewed by the American authorities, who apologised for the misunderstanding.99

The following day, September 23, the BBC published another story, "Hijack "-Suspects' Alive and Well." Discussing several alleged hijackers who had shown up alive, it said of al-Shehri in particular: "He acknowledges that he attended flight training school at Daytona Beach. . . . But, he says, he left the United States in September last year, became a pilot with Saudi Arabian airlines and is currently on a further training course in Morocco."100

In 2003, an article in Der Spiegel tried to debunk these two BBC stories, characterizing them as "nonsense about surviving terrorists." It claimed that the reported still-alive hijackers were all cases of mistaken identity, involving men with "coincidentally identical names." This claim by Der Spiegel depended on its assertion that, at the time of the reports, the FBI had released only a list of names: "The FBI did not release photographs until four days after the cited reports, on September 27th."101 But that was not true. Bamford's BBC story of September 22, as we saw, reported that Waleed al-Shehri's photograph had been "released by the FBI" and "shown in newspapers and on television around the world."

In 2006, nevertheless, the BBC used the same claim to withdraw its support for its own stories. Steve Herrmann, the editor of the BBC News website, claimed that confusion had arisen because "these were common Arabic and Islamic names." Accordingly, he said, the BBC had changed its September 23 story in one respect: "Under the FBI picture of Waleed al Shehri we have added the words "-A man called Waleed Al Shehri...' to make it as clear as possible that there was confusion over the identity."102 But Bamford's BBC story of September 22, which Herrmann failed to mention, had made it "as clear as possible" that there could not have been any confusion.

These attempts by Der Spiegel and the BBC, in which they tried to discredit the reports that Waleed al-Shehri was still alive after 9/11, have been refuted by Jay Kolar, who shows that FBI photographs had been published by Saudi newspapers as early as September 19. Kolar thereby undermines the only argument against Bamford's assertion, according to which there could have been no possibility of mistaken identity because al-Shehri had seen his published photograph prior to September 22, when Bamford's story appeared.103

The fact that al-Shehri, along with several other alleged hijackers,104 was alive after 9/11 shows unambiguously that at least some of the men on the FBI's final list were not on the planes. It would appear that the FBI, after replacing some of its first-round candidates because of their continued existence, decided not to replace any more, in spite of their exhibition of the same defect.

11. Is There Positive Evidence That No Hijackers Were on the Planes?

At this point, defenders of the official story might argue: The fact that some of the men labeled hijackers were still alive after 9/11 shows only that the FBI list contained some errors; it does not prove that there were no al-Qaeda hijackers on board. And although the previous points do undermine the evidence for such hijackers, absence of evidence is not necessarily evidence of absence.

Evidence of absence, however, is implicit in the prior points in two ways. First, the lack of Arab names on the Pentagon autopsy report and on any of the issued passenger manifests does suggest the absence of al-Qaeda operatives. Second, if al-Qaeda hijackers really were on the flights, why was evidence to prove this fact fabricated?

Beyond those two points, moreover, there is a feature of the reported events that contradicts the claim that hijackers broke into the pilots' cabins. This feature can be introduced by reference to Conan Doyle's short story "Silver Blaze," which is about a famous race horse that had disappeared the night before a big race. Although the local Scotland Yard detective believed that Silver Blaze had been stolen by an intruder, Sherlock Holmes brought up "the curious incident of the dog in the night-time." When the inspector pointed out that "[t]he dog did nothing in the night-time," Holmes replied: "That was the curious incident."105 Had there really been an intruder, in other words, the dog would have barked. This has become known as the case of "the dog that didn't bark."

A similar curious incident occurred on each of the four flights. In the event of a hijacking, pilots are trained to enter the standard hijack code (7500) into their transponders to alert controllers on the ground. Using the transponder to send a code is called "squawking." One of the big puzzles about 9/11 was why none of the pilots squawked the hijack code.

CNN provided a good treatment of this issue, saying with regard to the first flight:

Flight 11 was hijacked apparently by knife-wielding men. Airline pilots are trained to handle such situations by keeping calm, complying with requests, and if possible, dialing in an emergency four digit code on a device called a transponder. . . . The action takes seconds, but it appears no such code was entered.106

The crucial issue was indicated by the phrase "if possible": Would it have been possible for the pilots of Flight 11 to have performed this action? A positive answer was suggested by CNN's next statement:

[I]n the cabin, a frantic flight attendant managed to use a phone to call American Airlines Command Center in Dallas. She reported the trouble. And according to "The Christian Science Monitor," a pilot apparently keyed the microphone, transmitting a cockpit conversation.107

If there was time for both of those actions to be taken, there would have been time for one of the pilots to enter the four-digit hijack code.

That would have been all the more true of the pilots on United Flight 93, given the (purported) tapes from this flight. A reporter at the Moussaoui trial, where these tapes had been played, wrote:

In those tapes, the pilots shouted as hijackers broke into the cockpit. "Mayday! Mayday! Mayday!" a pilot screamed in the first tape. In the second tape, 30 seconds later, a pilot shouted: "Mayday! Get out of here! Get out of here!"108

According to these tapes, therefore, the pilots were still alive and coherent 30 seconds after realizing that hijackers were breaking into the cockpit. And yet in all that time, neither of them did the most important thing they had been trained to do---turn the transponder to 7500.

In addition to the four pilots on Flights 11 and 93, furthermore, the four pilots on Flights 175 and 77 failed to do this as well.

In "Silver Blaze," the absence of an intruder was shown by the dog that didn't bark. On 9/11, the absence of hijackers was shown by the pilots who didn't squawk.

12. Were bin Laden and al-Qaeda Capable of Orchestrating the Attacks?

For prosecutors to prove that defendants committed a crime, they must show that they had the ability (as well as the motive and opportunity) to do so. But several political and military leaders from other countries have stated that bin Laden and al-Qaeda simply could not have carried out the attacks. General Leonid Ivashov, who in 2001 was the chief of staff for the Russian armed forces, wrote:

Only secret services and their current chiefs---or those retired but still having influence inside the state organizations---have the ability to plan, organize and conduct an operation of such magnitude. . . . . Osama bin Laden and "Al Qaeda" cannot be the organizers nor the performers of the September 11 attacks. They do not have the necessary organization, resources or leaders.

Mohamed Hassanein Heikal, the former foreign minister of Egypt, wrote:

Bin Laden does not have the capabilities for an operation of this magnitude. When I hear Bush talking about al-Qaida as if it was Nazi Germany or the communist party of the Soviet Union, I laugh because I know what is there.

Similar statements have been made by Andreas von B黮ow, the former state secretary of West Germany's ministry of defense, by General Mirza Aslam Beg, former chief of staff of Pakistan's army, and even General Musharraf, the president of Pakistan until recently.109

This same point was also made by veteran CIA agent Milt Bearden. Speaking disparagingly of "the myth of Osama bin Laden" on CBS News the day after 9/11, Bearden said: "I was there [in Afghanistan] at the same time bin Laden was there. He was not the great warrior." With regard to the widespread view that bin Laden was behind the attacks, he said: "This was a tremendously sophisticated operation against the United States---more sophisticated than anybody would have ascribed to Osama bin Laden." Pointing out that a group capable of such a sophisticated attack would have had a way to cover their tracks, he added: "This group who was responsible for that, if they didn't have an Osama bin Laden out there, they'd invent one, because he's a terrific diversion."110

13. Could Hani Hanjour Have Flown Flight 77 into the Pentagon?

The inability of al-Qaeda to have carried out the operation can be illustrated in terms of Hani Hanjour, the al-Qaeda operative said to have flown Flight 77 into the Pentagon.

On September 12, before it was stated that Hanjour had been the pilot of American 77, the final minutes of this plane's trajectory had been described as one requiring great skill. A Washington Post story said:

[J]ust as the plane seemed to be on a suicide mission into the White House, the unidentified pilot executed a pivot so tight that it reminded observers of a fighter jet maneuver. . . . Aviation sources said the plane was flown with extraordinary skill, making it highly likely that a trained pilot was at the helm.111

But Hani Hanjour was not that. Indeed, a CBS story reported, an Arizona flight school said that Hanjour's "flying skills were so bad . . . they didn't think he should keep his pilot's license." The manager stated: "I couldn't believe he had a commercial license of any kind with the skills that he had."112 A New York Times story, entitled "A Trainee Noted for Incompetence," quoted one of his instructors as saying that Hanjour "could not fly at all."113

The 9/11 Commission even admitted that in the summer of 2001, just months before 9/11, a flight instructor in New Jersey, after going up with Hanjour in a small plane, "declined a second request because of what he considered Hanjour's poor piloting skills."114 The Commission failed to address the question of how Hanjour, incapable of flying a single-engine plane, could have flown a giant 757 through the trajectory reportedly taken by Flight 77: descending 8,000 feet in three minutes and then coming in at ground level to strike Wedge 1 of the Pentagon between the first and second floors, without even scraping the lawn.

Several pilots have said this would have been impossible. Russ Wittenberg, who flew large commercial airliners for 35 years after serving as a fighter pilot in Vietnam, says it would have been "totally impossible for an amateur who couldn't even fly a Cessna" to fly that downward spiral and then "crash into the Pentagon's first floor wall without touching the lawn."115 Ralph Omholt, a former 757 pilot, has bluntly said: "The idea that an unskilled pilot could have flown this trajectory is simply too ridiculous to consider."116 Ralph Kolstad, who was a US Navy "top gun" pilot before becoming a commercial airline pilot for 27 years, has said: "I have 6,000 hours of flight time in Boeing 757's and 767's and I could not have flown it the way the flight path was described. . . . Something stinks to high heaven!"117

The authors of the Popular Mechanics book about 9/11 offered to solve this problem. While acknowledging that Hanjour "may not have been highly skilled," they said that he did not need to be, because all he had to do was, using a GPS unit, put his plane on autopilot.118 "He steered the plane manually for only the final eight minutes of the flight," they state triumphantly119---ignoring the fact that it was precisely during those minutes that Hanjour had allegedly performed the impossible.

14. Would an al-Qaeda Pilot Have Executed that Maneuver?

A further question is: Even if one of the al-Qaeda operatives on that flight could have executed that maneuver, would he have done so? This question arises out of the fact that the plane could easily have crashed into the roof on the side of the Pentagon that housed Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld and all the top brass. The difficult maneuver would have been required only by the decision to strike Wedge 1 on the side.

But this was the worst possible place, given the assumed motives of the al-Qaeda operatives: They would have wanted to kill Rumsfeld and the top brass, but Wedge 1 was as far removed from their offices as possible. They would have wanted to cause as much destruction as possible, but Wedge 1---and only it---had been renovated to make it less vulnerable to attack. Al-Qaeda operatives would have wanted to kill as many Pentagon employees as possible, but because the renovation was not quite complete, Wedge 1 was only sparsely occupied. The attack also occurred on the only part of the Pentagon that would have presented physical obstacles to an attacking airplane. All of these facts were public knowledge. So even if an al-Qaeda pilot had been capable of executing the maneuver to strike the ground floor of Wedge 1, he would not have done so.

15. Could al-Qaeda Operatives Have Brought Down the World Trade Center Buildings?

Returning to the issue of competence, another question is whether al-Qaeda operatives could have brought down the Twin Towers and WTC 7?

With regard to the Twin Towers, the official theory is that they were brought down by the impact of the airplanes plus the ensuing fires. But this theory cannot explain why the towers, after exploding outwards at the top, came straight down, because this type of collapse would have required all 287 of each building's steel columns---which ran from the basement to the roof---to have failed simultaneously; it cannot explain why the top parts of the buildings came straight down at virtually free-fall speed, because this required that the lower parts of the building, with all of their steel and concrete, offered no resistance; it cannot explain why sections of steel beams, weighing thousands of tons, were blown out horizontally more than 500 feet; it cannot explain why some of the steel had melted, because this melting required temperatures far hotter than the fires in the buildings could possibly have been; and it cannot explain why many firefighters and WTC employees reported massive explosions in the buildings long after all the jet-fuel had burned up. But all of these phenomena are easily explainable by the hypothesis that the buildings were brought down by explosives in the procedure known as controlled demolition.120

This conclusion now constitutes the consensus of independent physicists, chemists, architects, engineers, and demolition experts who have studied the facts.121 For example, Edward Munyak, a mechanical and fire protection engineer who worked in the US departments of energy and defense, says: "The concentric nearly freefall speed exhibited by each building was identical to most controlled demolitions. . . . Collapse [was] not caused by fire effects."122 Dwain Deets, the former director of the research engineering division at NASA's Dryden Flight Research Center, mentions the "massive structural members being hurled horizontally" as one of the factors leaving him with "no doubt [that] explosives were involved."123

Given the fact that WTC 7 was not even hit by a plane, its vertical collapse at virtually free-fall speed, which also was preceded by explosions and involved the melting of steel, was still more obviously an example of controlled demolition.124 For example, Jack Keller, emeritus professor of engineering at Utah State University, who has been given special recognition by Scientific American, said: "Obviously it was the result of controlled demolition."125 Likewise, when Danny Jowenko---a controlled demolition expert in the Netherlands who had not known that WTC 7 had collapsed on 9/11---was asked to comment on a video of its collapse, he said: "They simply blew up columns, and the rest caved in afterwards. . . . [I]t's been imploded. . . . A team of experts did this."126

If the Twin Towers and WTC 7 were brought down by explosives, the question becomes: Who would have had the ability to place the explosives? This question involves two parts: First, who could have obtained access to the buildings for all the hours it would have taken to plant the explosives? The answer is: Only someone with connections to people in charge of security for the World Trade Center.

The second part of the question is: Who, if they had such access, would have had the expertise to engineer the controlled demolition of these three buildings? As Jowenko's statement indicated, the kind of controlled demolition to which these buildings were subjected was implosion, which makes the building come straight down. According to ImplosionWorld.com, an implosion is "by far the trickiest type of explosive project, and there are only a handful of blasting companies in the world that possess enough experience . . . to perform these true building implosions."127

Both parts of the question, therefore, rule out al-Qaeda operatives. The destruction of the World Trade Center had to have been an inside job.

16. Would al-Qaeda Operatives Have Imploded the Buildings?

Finally, we can also ask whether, even if al-Qaeda operatives had possessed the ability to cause the World Trade Center buildings to implode so as to come straight down, they would have done so? The answer to this question becomes obvious once we reflect upon the purpose of this kind of controlled demolition, which is to avoid damaging near-by buildings. Had the 110-story Twin Towers fallen over sideways, they would have caused massive destruction in lower Manhattan, destroying dozens of other buildings and killing tens of thousands of people. Would al-Qaeda have had the courtesy to make sure that the buildings came straight down?

Conclusion

All the proffered evidence that America was attacked by Muslims on 9/11, when subjected to critical scrutiny, appears to have been fabricated. If that is determined indeed to be the case, the implications would be enormous. Discovering and prosecuting the true perpetrators of the 9/11 attacks would obviously be important. The most immediate consequence, however, should be to reverse those attitudes and policies that have been based on the assumption that America was attacked by Muslims on 9/11.

Notes

1. On the ways in which torture, extraordinary rendition, government spying, and the military tribunals have undermined US constitutional principles, see Louis Fisher, The Constitution and 9/11: Recurring Threats to America's Freedoms (Lawrence: Kansas University Press, 2008).

2. The 9/11 Commission Report: Final Report of the National Commission on Terrorist Attacks upon the United States, authorized edition (New York: W. W. Norton, 2004), 160 (henceforth 9/11CR).

3. 9/11CR 154.

4. Kevin Fagan, "Agents of Terror Leave Their Mark on Sin City," San Francisco Chronicle, 4 October 2001 (click here

5. See ibid.; David Wedge, "Terrorists Partied with Hooker at Hub-Area Hotel," Boston Herald, 10 October, 2001 (click here and Jody A. Benjamin, "Suspects' Actions Don't Add Up," South Florida Sun-Sentinel, 16 September 2001 (click here

6. "Terrorist Stag Parties," Wall Street Journal, 10 October 2001 (http://www.opinionjournal.com/best/?id=95001298).

7. 9/11CR 248.

8. "Meet the Press," NBC, 23 September, 2001 (click here

9. "Remarks by the President, Secretary of the Treasury O'Neill and Secretary of State Powell on Executive Order," White House, 24 September 2001 (click here

10. Seymour M. Hersh, "What Went Wrong: The C.I.A. and the Failure of American Intelligence," New Yorker, 1 October 2001 (http://cicentre.com/Documents/DOC_Hersch_OCT_01.htm).

11. "White House Warns Taliban: "-We Will Defeat You,'" CNN, 21 September 2001 (click here

12. Office of the Prime Minister, "Responsibility for the Terrorist Atrocities in the United States," BBC News, 4 October 2001 (click here

13. "The Investigation and the Evidence," BBC News, 5 October 2001 (http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/1581063.stm).

14. Kathy Gannon, "Taliban Willing to Talk, But Wants U.S. Respect," Associated Press, 1 November 2001 (click here

15. Federal Bureau of Investigation, "Most Wanted Terrorists: Usama bin Laden" (http://www.fbi.gov/wanted/terrorists/terbinladen.htm).

16. Ed Haas, "FBI says, "-No Hard Evidence Connecting Bin Laden to 9/11'" Muckraker Report, 6 June 2006 (http://www.teamliberty.net/id267.html).

17. See my discussion in The New Pearl Harbor Revisited: 9/11, the Cover-Up, and the Expos?(Northampton: Olive Branch, 2008), 208-11.

18. BBC News, "Tape "-Proves Bin Laden's Guilt,'" 14 December 2001 (http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/1708091.stm).

19. See "The Fake 2001 bin Laden Video Tape" (http://www.whatreallyhappened.com/osamatape.html).

20. Thomas H. Kean and Lee H. Hamilton, with Benjamin Rhodes, Without Precedent: The Inside Story of the 9/11 Commission (New York: Alfred A. Knopf, 2006).

21. 9/11CR 149, 155, 166.

22. See 9/11CR Ch. 5, notes 16, 41, and 92.

23. Kean and Hamilton, Without Precedent, 118.

24. Ibid., 122-24.

25. Ibid., 119.

26. Robert Windrem and Victor Limjoco, "The 9/11 Commission Controversy," Deep Background: NBC News Investigations, 30 January 2008 (click here

27. Tim O'Brien, "Wife of Solicitor General Alerted Him of Hijacking from Plane," CNN, 11 September 2001 (http://archives.cnn.com/2001/US/09/11/pentagon.olson).

28. Charles Lane and John Mintz, "Bid to Thwart Hijackers May Have Led to Pa. Crash," Washington Post, 13 September 2001 (click here

29. Kerry Hall, "Flight Attendant Helped Fight Hijackers," News & Record (Greensboro, N.C.), 21 September 2001 (click here

30. 9/11CR 6.

31. Gail Sheehy, "Stewardess ID'd Hijackers Early, Transcripts Show," New York Observer, 15 February 2004 (http://www.observer.com/node/48805).

32. "Calm Before the Crash: Flight 11 Crew Sent Key Details Before Hitting the Twin Towers," ABC News, 18 July 2002 (click here

33. A. K. Dewdney, "The Cellphone and Airfone Calls from Flight UA93," Physics 911, 9 June 2003 (http://physics911.net/cellphoneflight93.htm). For discussion of this issue, see The New Pearl Harbor Revisited, 112-14.

34. See Debunking 9/11 Myths: Why Conspiracy Theories Can't Stand Up to the Facts: An In-Depth Investigation by Popular Mechanics, ed. David Dunbar and Brad Reagan (New York: Hearst Books, 2006), 83-86.

35. Lechner FBI Affidavit; available at Four Corners: Investigative TV Journalism (click here Woodward and Sweeney are not identified by name in the affidavit, which refers simply to the former as "an employee of American Airlines at Logan" and to the latter as "a flight attendant on AA11." But their names were revealed in an "investigative document compiled by the FBI" to which Eric Lichtblau referred in "Aboard Flight 11, a Chilling Voice," Los Angeles Times, 20 September 2001 (click here

36. 9/11CR 453n32.

37. Gail Sheehy, "9/11 Tapes Reveal Ground Personnel Muffled Attacks," New York Observer, 24 June, 2004 (http://www.observer.com/node/49415).

38. Greg Gordon, "Prosecutors Play Flight 93 Cockpit Recording," McClatchy Newspapers, KnoxNews.com, 12 April 2006 (click here The quoted statement is Gordon's paraphrase of the testimony of "a member of the FBI Joint Terrorism Task Force."

39. See United States v. Zacarias Moussaoui, Exhibit Number P200054 (click here This graphics presentation can be more easily viewed in "Detailed Account of Phone Calls from September 11th Flights" at 9-11 Research (click here

40. "The Final Moments of United Flight 93," Newsweek, 22 September 2001 (click here See "Interview with Deena Lynne Burnett (re: phone call from hijacked flight)," 9/11 Commission, FBI Source Documents, Chronological, September 11, 2001, Intelfiles.com, 14 March 2008 (click here Greg Gordon, "Widow Tells of Poignant Last Calls," Sacramento Bee, 11 September 2002 (click here and Deena L. Burnett (with Anthony F. Giombetti), Fighting Back: Living Beyond Ourselves (Longwood, Florida: Advantage Inspirational Books, 2006), where she wrote: "I looked at the caller ID and indeed it was Tom's cell phone number" (61).

42. William M. Arkin, "When Seeing and Hearing Isn't Believing," Washington Post, 1 February 1999 (click here Although Brickhouse Security's advertisement for Telephone Voice Changers (click here has been modified in recent years, it previously included a device called "FoneFaker," the ad for which said: "Record any call you make, fake your Caller ID and change your voice, all with one service you can use from any phone."

44. For Deena Burnett's reconstruction of the calls, see click here

45. See The New Pearl Harbor Revisited, 122.

46. Lichtblau, "Aboard Flight 11, a Chilling Voice" (see note 34, above).

47. 9/11CR 4, 6.

48. See note 38, above.

49. 9/11CR 19.

50. Ibid.

51. "Summary of Air Traffic Hijack Events: September 11, 2001," FAA, 17 September 2001 (click here

52. Frank J. Murray, "Americans Feel Touch of Evil; Fury Spurs Unity," Washington Times, 11 September 2002 (click here

53. "Ashcroft Says More Attacks May Be Planned," CNN, 18 September 2001 (click here "Terrorist Hunt," ABC News (click here

54. Anne Karpf, "Uncle Sam's Lucky Finds," Guardian, 19 March 2002 (click here Like some others, this article mistakenly said the passport belonged to Mohamed Atta.

55. Statement by Susan Ginsburg, senior counsel to the 9/11 Commission, at the 9/11 Commission Hearing, 26 January 2004 (click hereThe Commission's account reflected a CBS report that the passport had been found "minutes after" the attack, which was stated by the Associated Press, 27 January 2003.

56. Sheila MacVicar and Caroline Faraj, "September 11 Hijacker Questioned in January 2001," CNN, 1 August 2002 (click here 9/11 Commission Hearing, 26 January 2004.

57. 9/11CR 14; Jere Longman, Among the Heroes: United 93 and the Passengers and Crew Who Fought Back (New York: HarperCollins, 2002), 215.

58. In light of the absurdity of the claims about the passports of al-Suqami and Jarrah, we can safely assume that the ID cards of Majed Moqed, Nawaf al-Hazmi, and Salem al-Hazmi, said to have been discovered at the Pentagon crash site (see "9/11 and Terrorist Travel," 9/11 Commission Staff Report [click here 27, 42), were also planted.

59. For a photograph of the headband, see 9-11 Research, "The Crash of Flight 93" (click here

60. Quoted in Ross Coulthart, "Terrorists Target America," Ninemsn, September 2001 (click here

61. Lechner FBI Affidavit (see note 34, above).

62. Sydney Morning Herald, 15 September 2001; Boston Globe, 18 September, 2001.

63. The 9/11 Commission's Staff Statement No. 16, dated 16 June 2004 (http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/5224099), said: "The Portland detour almost prevented Atta and Omari from making Flight 11 out of Boston. In fact, the luggage they checked in Portland failed to make it onto the plane."

64. 9/11CR 1-2.

65. 9/11CR 451n1; FBI Director Robert S. Mueller III, "Statement for the Record," Joint Intelligence Committee Inquiry, 26 September 2002 (click here

66. "Two Brothers among Hijackers," CNN Report, 13 September 2001 (click here

67. "Feds Think They've Identified Some Hijackers," CNN, 13 September 2001 (click here

68. "Portland Police Eye Local Ties," Associated Press, Portsmouth Herald, 14 September 2001 (click here

69. Joel Achenbach, "'You Never Imagine' A Hijacker Next Door," Washington Post, 16 September 2001 (click here Rowland Morgan and Ian Henshall, 9/11 Revealed: The Unanswered Questions (New York: Carroll & Graf, 2005), 181.

71. David Hench, "Ticket Agent Haunted by Brush with 9/11 Hijackers," Portland Press Herald, 6 March 2005 (http://www.spartacus.blogs.com/ticketagent.htm).

72. This photo can be seen at click here

73. Associated Press, 22 July 2004. The photo with this caption can be seen in Morgan and Henshall, 9/11 Revealed, 117-18, along with a genuine security video (with identification data), or at http://killtown.911review.org/flight77/hijackers.html (scroll half-way down).

74. Rowland and Henshall, 9/11 Revealed, 118.

75. 9/11CR 452n11.

76. Jay Kolar, "What We Now Know about the Alleged 9-11 Hijackers," in Paul Zarembka, ed., The Hidden History of 9-11 (New York: Seven Stories, 2008), 3-44, at 8 (emphasis Kolar's).

77. Richard A. Clarke, Against All Enemies: Inside America's War on Terror (New York: Free Press, 2004), 13.

78. "Statement of Robert C. Bonner to the National Commission on Terrorist Attacks upon the United States," 26 January 2004 (click here

79. Ibid.

80. "FBI: Early Probe Results Show 18 Hijackers Took Part," CNN, 13 September 2001 (click here "List of Names of 18 Suspected Hijackers," CNN, 14 September 2001 (click here

81. "List of Names of 18 Suspected Hijackers."

82. Gail Sheehy, "Stewardess ID'd Hijackers Early, Transcripts Show," New York Observer, 15 February 2004 (http://www.observer.com/node/48805).

83. Satam al-Suqami replaced a man named Amer Kamfar, and Abdulaziz al-Omari replaced a man with a similar name, Abdulrahman al-Omari; see Kolar, "What We Now Know," 12-15.

84. Another problem with the claim that Woodward had identified these three men is that the seat numbers reportedly used to identify Atta and al-Omari (see Gail Sheehy, "Stewardess ID'd Hijackers Early") did not match the numbers of the seats assigned to these two men (9/11CR 2).

85. All four passenger manifests can be found at click here

86. Terry McDermott, Perfect Soldiers: The 9/11 Hijackers: Who They Were, Why They Did It (New York: HarperCollins, 2005), photo section after p. 140.

87. This is stated at "The Passengers," 911myths.com (http://911myths.com/html/the_passengers.html).

88. Although discussions on the Internet have often claimed that these manifests were included in the FBI's evidence for the Moussaoui trial, several researchers failed to find them. See Jim Hoffman's discussion at click here

89. To view them, see "Passenger Lists," 9-11 Research (click here To download them and/or read cleaned-up versions, see "The Passengers," 911myths.com (http://911myths.com/html/the_passengers.html).

90. "Hijackers Linked to USS Cole Attack? Investigators Have Identified All the Hijackers; Photos to Be Released," CBS News, 14 September 2001 (click here Elizabeth Neuffer, "Hijack Suspect Lived a Life, or a Lie," Boston Globe, 25 September 2001 (click here

91. "Four Planes, Four Coordinated Teams," Washington Post, 16 September 2001 (click here

92. David Dunbar and Brad Reagan, eds., Debunking 9/11 Myths: Why Conspiracy Theories Can't Stand Up to the Facts (New York: Hearst Books, 2006), 63.

93. Andrew M. Baker, M.D., "Human Identification in a Post-9/11 World: Attack on American Airlines Flight 77 and the Pentagon Identification and Pathology" (click here

94. Steve Vogel, "Remains Unidentified for 5 Pentagon Victims," Washington Post, 21 November 2001 (click here See my discussion in Debunking 9/11 Debunking: An Answer to Popular Mechanics and Other Defenders of the Official Conspiracy Theory, revised & updated edition (Northampton: Olive Branch, 2007), 268-69.

96. "Ziad Jarrah," Wikipedia, as the article existed prior to September 8, 2006. On that date, that passage was removed. However, the earlier version of the article, containing the passage, is available at http://www.wanttoknow.info/articles/ziad_jarrah.

97. Thomas R. Olmsted, M.D. "Still No Arabs on Flight 77," Rense.com, 23 June 2003 (http://www.rense.com/general38/77.htm).

98. 9/11CR 5.

99. David Bamford, "Hijack "-Suspect' Alive in Morocco," BBC, 22 September 2001 (click here

100. "Hijack "-Suspects' Alive and Well," BBC News, 23 September 2001 (click here "Panoply of the Absurd," Der Spiegel, 8 September 2003 [click here

102. Steve Herrmann, "9/11 Conspiracy Theory," The Editors, BBC News, 27 October 2006 (click here

103. Jay Kolar, "Update: What We Now Know about the Alleged 9-11 Hijackers," Zarembka, ed., The Hidden History of 9-11: 293-304, at 293-94.

104. For discussion of some of these other men, see ibid., 295-98.

105. The story "Silver Blaze" is available at Wikisource (http://en.wikisource.org/wiki/Silver_Blaze).

106. "America Under Attack: How could It Happen?" CNN Live Event, 12 September 2001 (click here

107. Ibid. This was the "radio transmission" discussed earlier.

108. Richard A. Serrano, "Heroism, Fatalism Aboard Flight 93," Los Angeles Times, 12 April 2006 (click here

109. All of these statements are contained in the section headed "Senior Military, Intelligence, Law Enforcement, and Government Officials" at Patriots Question 9/11 (http://www.patriotsquestion911.com).

110. "9/12/2001: CIA Veteran Doubts Bin Laden Capable of 9/11 Attacks, Suspects Larger Plot," Aidan Monaghan's Blog, 11 March 2008 (http://www.911blogger.com/blog/2074).

111. Marc Fisher and Don Phillips, "On Flight 77: "-Our Plane Is Being Hijacked,'" Washington Post, 12 September 2001 (click here

112. "FAA Was Alerted To Sept. 11 Hijacker," CBS News, 10 May 2002 (click here

113. Jim Yardley, "A Trainee Noted for Incompetence," New York Times, 4 May 2002 (click here 9/11CR 242.

115. Greg Szymanski, "Former Vietnam Combat and Commercial Pilot Firm Believer 9/11 Was Inside Government Job," Arctic Beacon, 17 July 2005 (click here Email from Ralph Omholt, 27 October 2006.

117. Alan Miller, "U.S. Navy 'Top Gun' Pilot Questions 911 Pentagon Story," OpedNews.com, 5 September 2007 (click here Dunbar and Reagan, eds., Debunking 9/11 Myths, 6.

119. Ibid.

120. These problems and more are discussed in The New Pearl Harbor Revisited, Ch. 1.

121. For such people who have been willing to go public, see Patriots Question 9/11 (http://PatriotsQuestion911.com).

122. Patriots Question 9/11 (http://PatriotsQuestion911.com/engineers.html#Munyak).

123. Stated at Architects and Engineers for 9/11 Truth (http://www.ae911truth.org/profile.php?uid=998819).

124. For anyone aware of the facts, NIST's report on the collapse of WTC 7, issued August 22, 2008, is laughable. For one thing, as I had predicted (Ch. 1 of The New Pearl Harbor Revisited), NIST simply ignored all the facts to which its fire theory cannot do justice, such as the melted steel, the thermite residue, and the reports of explosions in the building.

125. Architects and Engineers for 9/11 Truth (click here This interview can be seen at "Controlled Demolition Expert and WTC7" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3DRhwRN06I). A portion is contained in the film Loose Change Final Cut.

127. "The Myth of Implosion" (http://www.implosionworld.com/dyk2.html).

David Ray Griffin is professor emeritus at Claremont School of Theology and Claremont Graduate University, where he taught philosophy of religion and theology, with special emphases on the problem of evil and the relations between science and religion, theology and ecology, religion and politics, and modernity and postmodernity. He has published 34 books, including seven about 9/11, most recently The New Pearl Harbor Revisited: 9/11, The Cover-Up, and the Expos茅 (Olive Branch, 2008). Dr. Griffin's previous books about 9/11 include The New Pearl Harbor: Disturbing Questions about the Bush Administration and 9/11 (2004), The 9/11 Commission Report: Omissions and Distortions (2005), The American Empire and the Commonwealth of God (2005, co-authored with John B. Cobb, Jr., Richard Falk, and Catherine Keller), Christian Faith and the Truth about 9/11: A Call to Reflection and Action (2006), 9/11 and American Empire: Intellectuals Speak Out (2006, co-edited with Peter Dale Scott), Debunking 9/11 Debunking: An Answer to Popular Mechanics and Other Defenders of the Official Conspiracy Theory (2007), and 9/11 Contradictions: An Open Letter to Congress and the Press (2008).

2008-08-16T12:32:00.005+08:00

Do u noe how annoying it is to stare at the computer screen and hope for a cheap airfare to appear..sigh..
my hopes of going to aussie for the hols is broken into pieces!!
okey lets weigh the pros and the cons:

COns/problems:

1) i can't (more like don't want) to go to aussie b4 hari raya.. i mean i celebrated adiladha in India last year and i don't wanna celebrate it w/o family close by ( and one auntie in aussie does not count)

2) if 1) is the case then i have less than 14 days in australia..so im tinking if its worth goin to australia for less then 2 weeks

3) assuming that i do stay in australia for 2 weeks..it means that ill be missing abt 4days of lessons ( not really a prob for me!) but that would mean that i might be kicked out of skool (that however might be a BIG problem)..unless ofcourse they have loads of e-lesson in the first week...or i fake my aunt's wedding...

PROS:

1) okey there is only one...ill be in another country enjoying the spectacular view..(ahem..)
yea so u see...im in a delimma.. oh did i add that the last time i look at the airline prices they were all (even the budget once) above $1000.00!!

arghhh...and i have not touched physiology...
but i can't help it that the olympics are on...and micheal phleps has been great!!

so yea...if u see on the bright side...erm..australia is still gonna be there surrounded by the deep blue pacific ocean..( as it has been for the past 5 years..yea ive been waiting that long..)

2008-07-25T18:57:00.002+08:00

Man..it really ain't nice sitting at home and being sick..
i also realised two things today..

1) Flu vaccine DOES NOT make one immune to flu but the complete opposite! it makes one succumb to flu! (this theory has been proven true twice and any affected party is welcome to share his/her story and pledge AGAINST FLU VACCINATION.)

2) I always end up having a sore throat and feel terribly unwell when MS Udan (or any other sikkimese for that matter) come to Singapore..(this too has been proven twice!)

so there u go..two wonderful theories presented to you (and discovered) by aneesa..
for more amazing, mind boggling discoveries..please stay glued to..
erm this blog..

Disclaimer: any incidents or characters that seem similar is purely coincidental.. and theories do not have to be proven true with scientific or logical evidences.

2008-07-14T22:52:00.008+08:00

nalla pattu..i love the song kaatrin mozhi...

the first song.. ya allah...

beautiful..and im glad tat i can share it with u all... life's got me thinking again abt everything.. greatful for everthing ive got..

here i have to tell u guys a story..

a true story and as u all noe (naan oru pollaatha story teller) try to bear with me..

i am helping out in the RC below to teach phonics to kids..

and there are two kids who can't read that well..

one of them has speaking disabilities.. its always a joy teaching them...

the girl with the reading disability was disheartened whenever she couldn't read..

one day..she refused to even utter a word...

i suppose that she was sick and tired of even trying...

after all the following week she had to read the very piece of paper...

whereelse everyone else would have progressed to another.

i sat next to her..

took the piece of paper and started reading it..

slowly..pointing at each word like she would and pronounced each word..

she still din't utter a word..

then i told her that we would play a game..we would read the alternate words..

ill read one..she'll read the other..

i read..

she din't..

i waited...

and waited..

finally she read..one word after another..

slowly..she uttered..trying her best..

she crawled onto my lap..

and started reading...the paper..

pausing at words she din't know...waiting for my prompting..

later that day she followed

me where ever went..

sitting on my lap as i tested the other children..

she mimced the others as they read out their paragraphs..

at the end of the day she was smiling... and so was i..

it was one of the most memorable moments..

i suppose it doesn't make any sense..

y i wanted to share this...

but u noe..

i suppose i understand her plight..

i too have difficulties pronouncing the quran..

everytime i used try reading and couldn't i used to cry..

it hurt that i couldn't read while others could..

how i had to try and try while for many it was so easy..

she taught me a lesson that day...

that nothing is worth giving up..

2008-06-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

ive been tagged by Cutie pie mardhiah ..haha
Rules

A]People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
kick his ass and give him a piece of my mind!

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
seeing an angel...

#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
heaven

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
I am not as confused as i think myself to be but deep inside i know that i don't know wad lies ahead...feeling confused? okey then you understand my take on this..haha

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
someone worth loving, someone reasonable,understanding, compromising, truthful and loved by god..

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both..but loving someone more than that someone loving me is the best..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
till my patience runs dry...haha or when someone better comes along...

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i don't like people who are attached..its wrong..haha..(but jensen ackles is an exception)

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
people who are hypocritical and judgemental and narrow minded

#10. What do you want most in life?
to have a few very close friends whom ill never break friendships with..whom ill always be able to depend on...and family whom ill always never stop loving...and a home..(not a house) that i can return to at the end of the day...

#11. Is being tagged fun?
Its an interesting experience...haha i don't know about fun...perhaps more of thought provoking?

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
sleeping at home till after 9...haha family kids and a big fat smile...and laughter and friends.

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
My Mum...

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She is a loveable person who deserves the best of both worlds and is someone i can always turn to for an honest opinion...someone who is not afraid to tell her opinions in a way that hurts no-one...someone i can always trust...

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
MARRIED BUT POOR..haha

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
A Penguine

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
To be a person who has lost her personal values and principles just to get someone's attention...

#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
interesting..deep...loud and soft at the same time...someone who is genuine...(miru suggested that word)

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
A day when i wake up and realise that i haven't been truthful to myself and that i have wronged someone..

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
friendship...love doesn't last if there is no friendship...

okey my turn to tag...miru, loga, samantha soon, lydia, renu, vicky and samantha eng

2008-05-28T21:03:00.004+08:00

i am exhausted...(4 days of sleeping late doesnt do wonders..)

but i really need to write this because i m touched deeply by someone's gesture...

so here goes..

thank you lionel for taking the extra effort to talk in english whenever you started talking in

chinese...

I was really touched...

haha lionel would start off in chinese (a few letters) before pausing and then starting all over again in english...

thank you...

haha i suppose most people don't realise that it really isn't nice sitting down and hearing a foreign converstion happening in a foreign language..i suppose it is only for the minorities...

then i realise how much the minorites really value this...

every time any of my indian friends and myself talk in tamil...we always translate for who ever who doesn't understand...

no-one askes for the translation...but we tell...i suppose its cause we noe wad it is like being kept in the dark...

i am not pointing fingers at any body...or anything..( i noe it is really natural to talk in your own language when you meet someone with the same mother tongue)...

but just want you to think the next time you are with a minority (in your group) how would you feel if you don't get wad is going on?...

so you see...what lionel did really touched me...thanks lionel...

P.S. thank you samantha e and samantha s..and fannie for doing the translation for me whenever i am lost...i really appreciate it...thank you

2008-05-07T19:21:00.002+08:00

i am disappointed..

if there is something that i m not and thats selfish..

i hate those who are selfish..

it must be terrible being who u are..

it is like being in TKGs drama club all ova again..

but this time i don't have a phoebe and abigail..

2008-05-03T18:53:00.003+08:00

haha...
well i have been bumping into loads of ppl for the past few daes..
2dae i met celes at the lib...haha i was so happy to see her..
she asked y i din come to MJC chinese new year ICS dance thing..
she said everyone was there...
i felt ultra bad..i din go coz..i thought noone would remember me..
but i bet they did talk coz she asked y i hadn't turn up...
sigh..

okey next ICS meeting ill turn up no matter wad k?..no matter how much i tink ill stick out like a sore thumb..

then i met andreas...the guy who had/ has his whole life mapped out in front of him..
it was nice bumping into him..it has been soo long..i miss mjc class 06s302...

aniwaes..i can't wait to finish the diploma then degree..physiotherapy..
i realize that my social circle has widened..
and that i have become a little quiet..imagine aneesa quite!!?!
yea..i tink i need time..coz i analyze ppl before opening up to them..
and i m so lucky to always have been surrounded by such wonderful caring ppl!..
wad i do dislike is that the whole process of settling and getting the perfect set of friends..
i suppose everything takes time..

I am so glad that Fannie has decided to stay...she is the first person i ever met in NYP..
just like hiral was the 1st i met in my primary skool,
sam in sec3
mard in jc...
see...first friendships last long and are often the best..not that i m saying that others aren't..
its just that the first ones are special..
in a very strangly comfprting way..
sadly, cloe might be leaving...she was the second friend i met..
see..it just has something to do with fate..

I was right about opportunities that knock on ur door twice will knock a third time..
sighs..
i got mathematical science from NTU...
i wanted accountancy..i wasn't disappointed..
i just knew..
it was fated me and physio..
haha don't ask y..i can't tell its a secret btw god and me..haha
a secret that i don't even know..

i dont know...but its so strange..how small the world is..

singapore is, actually..

my neighbour said someone who knew me through saajida saw me at nyp...

and wondered if i was studying there...she asked my neighbour who inturn asked me..

someone else asked shashee...abt me...i don't EVEN have a clue on who the person is..

i m sooo puzzled..

now to think that i thought that i did not know anyone in NYP except for NAZ...

i must be famous without me even knowing..

haha...

i guess miracles do occur..

okey thats a synopsis of my life..haha..
glad to share it with you...

oh btw today is 5/5/08...LOGA HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

had a great time meeting u guys..

sigh i realize that its my close friends' life that spice up mine..!!

haha so much for having my OWN life..its on loan...anyone want it?

JK..

okies bye

2008-04-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

i am in cloud nine..
okey first things first...
anatomy is tedious..yup it is..
but boy m i glad i m not in medical(not as if i can make it there but..)
haha
meaning that I am soo glad that i don't have to memorise the WHOLE ANATOMY BOOK!!

haha so there, good thing no1..

No2. ARCHITECTURE(NUS) has selected me!! haha i m going for the test..for fun!..

No3. haha i wouldn't tell u wad..but 2nd time i was offered this...
and 2nd time i turned it down...sigh..they say good tings comes in threes..
ill wait for the 3rd one..

yups..

okey now i promised VICKY that ill highlight her today! haha

vicky is a cutie pie (she asked me to write this..haha JK)
who is from NYJC!! haha
she is nice lar..haha violent but nice..
haha i seek comfort in her..she is so friendly and all yups..
so happy that there are 4 nyjcians in the same class..
a sense of familiarity.. in a comfortable way..

week 2 of school and i really like my class..
the lessons are managable (if one consistently studies..haha and i tink dr umma already has a bad impression abt me coz i din do ANY studying of the recent lecture...haha okey time to change misconceptions eh?)

am still contemplating on if i should go on sat..sigh if i do itll be a really tiring day!

2008-04-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

tomorrow may not be..kal ho naa ho...

i am offically in love with my dear sharukhan!!!

haha i think he is a smashing actor...

yea..

i bumped into rei earlier today..

his gf is really good looking..he says she is from korea!!

haha..aniwaes it was nice meeting him...in a weird way i miss 0610..

surprise surprise...

i saw many people during the week...talked to many over the phone...

i love all the people who surround/surrounded me..u know...

i am very greatful..

for tomorrow may not be...

2008-04-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey...haha 2nd dae of school and I'M LOVING IT...

2008-04-10T17:26:00.004+08:00

somethings are best explained...

some others are best left alone...

you know what is really funny?...

how can one thing be perceived in many ways...

all together different from what it is actually supposed to mean...

i said something you have been thinking...

does that make me a sinner and you an angel?

i didn't realise that i was missed so much..

really...i did not...

i am truly touched...

ever wanted to do something so strange?..

really silly?..

my ultimate silly things to achieve list..

<1> to step on wet cement with high heels..

~~<2> to pick locks...~~

<3> to photocopy one's face and see the print..

<4> to ride an elephant without help..

<5> to take a pic of a drop of rain falling..

~~<6> to taste/eat snow~~

i m impressed i have done some of them already..haha..

2008-04-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

great birthdae toade..

sorry to all those whom i never replied too...(which is everyone..)

my credit was low...by the time i topped up...my bat was almost flat..

i was saving the bat for emergency...

when i did get back to replying..

MY BAT WENT FLAT...

i so need to change my phone...

yup..

it concked out on me 4 times... when i was smsing miru...

sigh,,i had to write the sms 3 TIMES from scratch as the hp of mine decided to play dead..

mann...

had a great dae..

m sorry that someone close had to pass away..

the morning was spent in a very reflective and emotional way in the hospital..

it reminded me..

that it was only another dae..i should be greatful to get another chance to undo to wrongs..

and make them right..

thank u allah for giving me this chance..

afternoon was spent with renu and lyd...love u guys..

night was spent at the centre with mum, aunty sally and miru and the kids..

one of the better birthdaes..

can't believe that this is DAY one OF MY last YEar of TEENHOOD!

2008-04-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

haha i tried this quiz..

the result...

The Dare Devil

You throw caution to the wind and love to burn out bridges, it only makes the adventure more difficult and you would hate an easy ride. You have very high energy levels and so keeping active is wise, otherwise you will find yourself unable to sleep, stressed, unhappy, lonely and worst of all, trapped in dull situtations. You dive straight into life head first, be it a relationship, job or arguement - whats the worst that could happen?! And as a result, you often find yourself up to your neck in trouble. Not to worry though, you have a charm and wit that is bullet proof and once out of this sticky mess, you'll only jump straight into a new one. Age will curb your appetite for disaster and kaos, and so long as your not hurting those around you, you will find yourself in good company, well liked and happy. If however you have been unable to restrain your diet of fun and frolocks you may quickly find yourself out of luck and friends - without which your no good to anyone, especially yourself.

Haha fine thing eh?

Never saw myself as a dare devil...

more of the coward angel...thats wad i am...

haha...(nope kidding i do think i m more to the daring side)

a shout out to sam E...i m soo sorrie...

yup now that thats over...

haha i am larfing..

don't u think life funny?..

we all think none is watching us...

but thats far from the truth...

i mean..half the time i sit on the second erm...level? of the double decker bus..

amd watch down on the people...small..tiny ones..

observing...and staring down...feelin as if i m at the top of the world(okey its a fairly tiny area that my peripheral vision covers.)

and to the skeptics out there..yea yea 10 foot higher than most people is still considered a great height)

haha...then i realize all the weird things ppl do..

haha..

things that I DO TOO..

makes us think when god is looking down..

how does he feel..

makes me realise that even when i think none's looking...

someone is..

on a funny note..

i was picking locks the other dae..

i think everyone should try it...its a great deal of fun...

i picked so many locks.the fatter ones are harder though...

it had always been a strange fantasy to pick locks..

NOw i can do it pretty good..haha ill be an expert soon..

and beware mates..soon ill be lurking and opening all ur secret doors...haha

nites..

last dae of my eighteen year..i really enjoyed todae..

2008-04-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

It hasn't struck me that its april 8th today!! nope it hasn't!! is it so fast? i mean 3 months gone and the 4th month is starting to run already!

yup...to those who know.abt it..

i m really defenseless... anything that i say would be brushed off..

so i really have only 3 words..

I WAS MISQUOTED...

buy it buy it not...i really don't care..

on the brighter side of life..

i just got my timetable!!

I DON"T HAVE SKOOL ON FRIDAYS..

haha and my mon, wed and thurs are freaking short!!

yups..

wed skools from 11 to 2!! haha

can't wait man..seriously..

although it is all happening too fast..

but this is the way i like it!!! haha

love it actually...

BYEZZZ...

p.s. my hotmails not working!! i m sooo gonna throw this comp away...

soon...

2008-04-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

IT was raining cats and dogs...ever wondered why they don't name it elephants and rhinos? i mean, seriously a peek out the window would tell you that god has open the floodgates of heaven! its pouring...

so yeah, IT was raining elephants and rhinos...for the past few days..
am im wondering how come it NEVER RAINS in the MORNINGS...
i mean its the only time i Sleep IN...
sighs..

haha aniwaes to those who do not know wad is going on in my life,
ill be pleased to enlighten your poor little souls..
...
actually on second thoughts why bother...
i mean its only a blog rite?..
yupz so nope i m not going to shine any light into your pondering minds as to wad i m up to..

haha aniwaes schools gonna start!!
argh my dreams of having a blissfully long 8 month holiday has been miserably shrunk to a hecktic-4-month-sad-and-sorriful-almost-non-exisisting-hol...

MAN...but on the bright side...ill be out of school before those going to uni..haha
and i think i have more HOLS!!
hooorraaayyy...
well i have taken a very unconventional route though, mind you.., i was/am clearly able to take the well known path everybody would choose/want to/ has..take/taken...
yupz...

okey so ive heard physio is gonna be hard...
but like wad my aunt says "not all fingers on a hand is the same..."
so yup it mightn't be THAAAT hard...

but hey when there is a will..there just gotta be a way!! so all smiles...lets grab wadever life's gotta offer us! yups!...

so ppl out there take this advice!! don't listen to anyone except ur heart...and mind..( i noe its an irony)

till next time...inshallah..may allah bless us all...bye

2008-03-09T11:22:00.000+08:00

at least the wait is over...

to the darlings who were there for me...thank you..

esp..

My teachers: Ms Amy chiew , Mr Adrian Tan, Mrs Huang,

Mr Tan KY...Mr Nandwani

My Family & Family friends; Amma, Atta, Sabeer,Shafeeq,

Muma, Mumaappa, Manosinnama,

Sinnappa, feroz and family,

Fawzisinnamma, sinnappa, Imran,

Irfan,And family, Thameem Mama,

Nazim and family,Uappa, Attamma,

Shakina,Hakeem,faizal, Ameer,

Mama/mami and Family, Farzanah,

Arshard,Azeem.Tasneem,Pareatta/amma

and family..Everyone in India,

Zanaria aunt and family,

Sally aunt and family...

My Friends: Lydia,Renuka, Nazirah, Sam E,Disha, Sam Soon, Mard,

Devi, Miru, Loga,Siva, Nazrin, Arch, Nasreen,Kris,Hiral,

Esther Yap, ChuJun, Zong Lin, Rei,Kim,PJ

Jeevan (thanks for the help), Mano (for asking)...

And everyone who mattered one way or another..

A BIG THANK YOU...ESP TO TEAHCERS!! and AMMA AND ATTA n S&S..love u all..

I am happy satisfied and grateful..It was my best shot & no regrets...

2008-03-04T11:52:00.000+08:00

Finally...after my umpteenth email they reply me...

on a reflective note..ever wondered why we treat babies

as well as the aged differently?

I mean, think about it, both are very dependent on others,

grouchy maybe..throwing tantrums at the very unlikeliest

of times, cute in different ways...sometimes we feel like screaming

at them, other times we feel like cuddling up to them...

YET the latter is often casted weird looks, the former forgiven easily..

for the very same mistakes..

IS it because we view the older generation as a burden ( why though?)

Or is it because we are afraid that sooner or later we will be in their very shoes?

IT will be our turn...yet our childhood will never return to us again...

thus we hope that children cherish theirs before...they become,well,like us.

But what ever the reason..can our doings be justified?

Well just a food for thought..to tickle your brains..before they start rusting.

On a hilarious note.. every wondered what the ending of some proverbs/idioms

really are like i mean before the wise decided to hide them from us?

well I have been pondering..

here are a few i have found or came up with:

Curiosity killed the cat...but satisfaction brought it back. (stephen king)

Don't cry over spilt milk...unless your mum smacks you.

Don't cry for the moon...you will have better luck with toys.

Practice makes perfect...But if there is no such thing as perfection then why practice? (saaji)

Love is blind...and deaf.

Speech is silver, silence is golden.

well nice to see and hear...

Results out on friday..best of luck people

2008-02-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

Sam .E says i have been the one who had corrupted her..

She says that she was a quiet little thing until i came into her life... *gasp* (so i did a poll on her tag to see who agrees with me that that isn't true...the results are..erm disappointing..yups..hahaone person voted for me...ten no votes..shheeesssh)..of course i disagree..

i mean i think she was the one who made me noisy!!

haha

yup she and lydia..

..haha

.....aniwaes...

i hope MOE replies me soon!!m so freaaking pissed...its going to be 5 months!!

2008-02-04T22:18:00.000+08:00

i don't know wad is freaking wrong with the imeem playing thing!!

IT DOESN'T PLAY

URGH man...i can't hear a song..my fav song..any song for that matter...

i don't understand..

how?

REALLY I DON'T

mann...

TO ALL THE K-PO's in the world..

2008-01-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

I think this is a beautiful song to hear now...

if only all our dreams could come true...

if my result slip is only a miracle..

i m praying...

2008-01-20T17:04:00.000+08:00

*Laughters*

I finally got a hold of my James Seigel Book!! after years of searching the high shelves and bending down scanning the low shelves!! Finally my sheer hardwork has prevailed!

Ahh like the wise always spit..i mean allege.."if There is a WILL there is a WAY!!"

haha..man..life is a far cry from blissful...but if we close our eyes and drown in our dreams..

if i pursue uttering pure nonsense as above i m sure everyone will resist reading my blog entries..how tempting..okey i shall assure you all that henceforth i will write as such...

always a pleasure...

2008-01-13T18:44:00.000+08:00

GREAT..

i am back to ground zero..

square ONE...
wadever you can call it..yes yes...i am starting from scratch!!!..

ARGHH...i m not gonna bother elaborating...

I figured two things out

A) people who go overseas leaving their family, they live a life on their own and have NO strings attached..which makes them very uncomfortable to realise (when they get back) that some decisions they make affects someone else...

But here's the reality...the world is interconnected..something you did once..might have affected someone at the other end of the world...
its just that u don't know it...

B) its always better if you are the customer being waited on.. not the other way round..

sigh life is full of lessons...oh on this note..

ATTENTION PEOPLE WHO ARE PHYSICALLY ATTACHED TO YOUR HPS!!

a) i noe you love ur hp but u don't really have to bring it into the toilet...really you don't
b) even if you do..PLEASE don't ans or call!!
c) IF by any chance you DO pick the phone up and are chatting..DON't tell the other party where you are...
d)...BUT IF YOU DO...(i seriously don't know y you would but..)..DON't tell EXACTLY wad you are DOING!!!

I SERIOUSLY AM NOT THAT INTERESTED IN YOUR private LIFE!!

(esp to renu..luv you man..except for that point)

2008-01-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

haha i got scolding from renuka for being jobless..by choice apparently...

Wad m i supposed to do if i wanna be a TEACHER...haha we get more money...yea well its good to be money minded...

haha no i m not money minded its a better excuse than to travel half across the GLOBE to work..okey not globe...singapore..yea..yea..
haha
happy hols..

2008-01-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

YEa..haha new blog and all...
i have offically turned down 5 jobs..
RECORD..in A week of applying for jobs..

haha..i dunno..i dun't wanna be a CASHIER/ A SALES PROMOTER/ WORK WITH SOMEONE WHOM I M RELATED TO..i wanna do relief teaching BUT...the silly MOE thing is so terrible..yea..i have been waitin 4 3 months..and its still under consideration..the MOE person also said that is unlikely...MAn..says alot about ur system

boy i really miss india...haha although it hasn't sunk into me yet that i am in not in india ...wad eva lar..i miss everyone there esp in NAGAPATTINAM..m so glad to have that sorta cuzins...

i hate it when you pry and make my life difficult...

stop actin all that innocent...

i have nothing much to sae but may allah have mercy and make me be able to forgive you..

2008-01-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

ahh..my 100th entry on a new blog..

a new year