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DARLINGS!
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no titles..
its past midnight..
but i couldn't sleep..

in this month of forgiveness how can one forgive an unforgivable act?
something so crude..
something so ridiculous..
im digusted by the unjust..

when will the promised day come?
where every unjust will be justly judged?
when will the day of questioning arrive?
where everyone's lies and misdoings questioned?
this dunya (world) offers no peace..
when will we see aahirah?

ya allah

i wish it was much easier..but its hard..if you are torn between respect and rational reasoning..
which wins?
i wish that i knew a way out without ripping any strings..
already on the verge of tearing..how can i possibly not break the fragile bond?
an impossible task at hand..
yet there is much at risk..for me that is..

dont you see how much it pains me to watch your life waste away?
and now you want me to be part of this vicious cycle..
i don't want to disappoint you..
yet i can't throw my life away and trap myself in a trap that i can never get out of..
i hate this..

i really do..
i smile coz frowning doesn't help..
it gives me neither joy nor satisfaction..
yet the smile doesn't reach the eye..
a smile with no soul..
perhaps thats wad ive become..

cause i dint believe that youll do this..
i thought that youll stand up for once..
yet i don't know why i don't blame you..
i convince myself tat it was the situation..
not your character default..
everytime you bring me into the cycle..
i laugh..
coz i can't cry..
my heart is a rock..
like u say ever so often..

but do you realise that it has to be such?
for we have to protect ourselves from the stones aimed at you?
you are so vulnerable..
and we don't want to end up that way..

i hate these strings that tie me down..
yet each string has an emotional value that i just can't bring myself to throw away..
y does this have to happen time and time again?

wat wrong have we done to deserve such?
you don't deserve it!
they do!
yet y are we suffering?us both?
y not them?

every time we see you suffer it reallie is painful..
and we are pulled into it along with you..
don't you see that they are the enemy not us?
must you lose us to realise that?

i don't know wat to do..
i know that the price is money..
but i really don't want us to win this battle..
we have fought so long coz the battle was for us to win!
but don't u see the injust?
they are fighting with you on their side..
don't you see that without you they are nothing?
though they make you believe that it is you who is nothing!

and here we are fighting for you..
against you..

ya allah..
may allah help you..
for you are confused beyond means..

i don't want to fight this battle any more..
let them win
i mean they are going to anyways..
y prolong the already known?
lets lose with dignity..
let them win this battle!

for they have a greater battle to fight in the hereafter..
and there ALLAH is the judge..
he is fair..
he will let us win..
for all along we have suffered for nothing..
there it will bring peace to our suffering..
there it will be justice to the ultimatum..
nothing unfair..

AL HAQQAH - INCOTESTABLE THE REALITY

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

The Sure Reality!

What is the Sure Reality?

And what will make thee realise what the Sure Reality is?

The Thamud and the 'Ad People (branded) as false the Stunning Calamity!

But the Thamud,- they were destroyed by a terrible Storm of thunder and lightning!

And the 'Ad, they were destroyed by a furious Wind, exceedingly violent;

He made it rage against them seven nights and eight days in succession: so that thou couldst see
the (whole) people lying prostrate in its (path), as they had been roots of hollow palm-trees tumbled down!

Then seest thou any of them left surviving?

And Pharaoh, and those before him, and the Cities Overthrown, committed habitual Sin.

And disobeyed (each) the apostle of their Lord; so He punished them with an abundant Penalty.

We, when the water (of Noah's Flood) overflowed beyond its limits, carried you (mankind), in the floating (Ark),

Then, when one blast is sounded on the Trumpet,

And the earth is moved, and its mountains, and they are crushed to powder at one stroke,-

On that Day shall the (Great) Event come to pass.

And the sky will be rent asunder, for it will that Day be flimsy,

And the angels will be on its sides, and eight will, that Day, bear the Throne of thy Lord above
them.

That Day shall ye be brought to Judgment: not an act of yours that ye hide will be hidden.

Then he that will be given his Record in his right hand will say: "Ah here! Read ye my Record!

"I did really understand that my Account would (One Day) reach me!"

And he will be in a life of Bliss,

In a Garden on high,

The Fruits whereof (will hang in bunches) low and near.

"Eat ye and drink ye, with full satisfaction; because of the (good) that ye sent before you, in the
days that are gone!"

And he that will be given his Record in his left hand, will say: "Ah! Would that my Record had not been given to me!

"And that I had never realised how my account (stood)!

"Ah! Would that (Death) had made an end of me!

"My power has perished from me!"...

(The stern command will say): "Seize ye him, and bind ye him,

"And burn ye him in the Blazing Fire.

"Further, make him march in a chain, whereof the length is seventy cubits!

"This was he that would not believe in Allah Most High.

"And would not encourage the feeding of the indigent!

"So no friend hath he here this Day.

"Nor hath he any food except the corruption from the washing of wounds,

"Which none do eat but those in sin."

So I do call to witness what ye see,

And what ye see not,

That this is verily the word of an honoured apostle;

It is not the word of a poet: little it is ye believe!

Nor is it the word of a soothsayer: little admonition it is ye receive.

(This is) a Message sent down from the Lord of the Worlds.

And if the apostle were to invent any sayings in Our name,

We should certainly seize him by his right hand,

And We should certainly then cut off the artery of his heart:

Nor could any of you withhold him (from Our wrath).

But verily this is a Message for the Allah.fearing.

And We certainly know that there are amongst you those that reject (it).

But truly (Revelation) is a cause of sorrow for the Unbelievers.

But verily it is Truth of assured certainty.

So glorify the name of thy Lord Most High.

Quran: Al Haqqah

my fave surah.. ive warned you on my part now its ur choice to believe or not.

SPArkling SMile